therealhuihoon

2010-05-13T02:07:00.000-07:00

exams overrrr!! haha bt theres no feeling of freedom no smell of that! cause im launching in productive and useful events and activities in my life that may benefit the rest of my life lol zz haha like driving! i have finally launched into practical driving lessons like omg luh! and i have to check the mirror, blind spots, control gear and clutch brake accelerator i dunno haha its like damned multi-tasking lah! nw i know being a driver is nt easy and its quite tiring lol so my dream will nt be to own a car and drive it myself bt actually knowing how to drive and having my own car bt letting someone drive for me,preferably an experienced chaffeur LOL ok so it sort of boils down that im lazy.sigh besides this i have to be diligent in grooming myself and remembering yog stuff turning up for yog and giving up my saturdays! so thats like half the wk gone! and i need a job,pronto! bt nw we have been thru the student and low pay life im more picky abt the pay where i work and whether my job scope is impt enuff to be filled in my resume and the reputation of my company.sigh. so far its these 3 thats occupying my time now bt i hope to get more done! like a routined fitness regime and extracting my wisdom tooth, polishing my teeth and getting a scalp/hair treatment to make my hair healthier i think its becoming more brittle ): and having a strict beauty regime..catching up on shows, exploring places..and gg to resorts world/universal studios etc..well we shall see huh! bt rt after exams im glad i finally went for K-ing(like omg luh since march i have been having this intense desire) finally..then went to the lovely hort park for our lovely picnic which my dear friends qq and mx have alrdy uploaded! (: love the grass wished i could go barefoot and just run on it and everything bt theres this irritating reptile/lizard/iguana/whatever that is running across this nice pasture when we were just starting to take off our shoes! stupid. then we gave up.the place is so serene.it just looks more urbanised yet pretty in that sense while botanic gardens has this more rugged feel more nature bt nt pretty its more of like nature. so in terms of beauty i choose hort park if its accesibility i prefer botantic gardens cause its so near to orchard! after so much nature can go fareast shop and eat at pastamania LOL! haha (: cant wait for a zoo trip with my dear QQ! bt thats in august..wait long long..):

2010-04-12T04:15:00.000-07:00

zz so long since i blogged and my blogger went bonkers the other time that i lost my long post!sigh recently i have decided to become more independent because of an incident with a friend bt shall nt mention it here, and i hope i really do! like more self assured of doing some things that im nt familiar with and ultimately becoming familiar.first thing to overcome is my fear of jamming the library's printers and photocopiers i dunno why whenever i use it alone some problem will occur! i swear its nt me! lol well that shall be the first step! gg to simei cc and starbucks alone shall be my nxt step.sigh! which means drinking teachat alone..haha god i sound like a total loner! well i think i actually am! ): maybe i wasnt one in the past but im seriously growing to be one! like how im slowly and nw almost totally liking to take public transport to and fro school alone like how i dislike having a conver on the bus and having everybdy listening to it( i dunno! i like them private) and having convers on the train when all i really want is to sleep or read my book. i think being a loner also involves some element of self centredness and of course the better part(self assurance)! i dunno some ppl just dun get it they talk non stop and worse! abt things im nt interested (self centred me!) and sometimes im really tired and when u stay awake its like when the needy people comes u have to give up ur seat(i know i know bt lugging a heavy bag and a lifeless soul isnt exactly the best time for me to really stand and squeeze amongst the crowd for an hr on the train)ok self centred again! aargh. sometimes when i go to class i would just like to talk to my closer friends and just ignore the rest of the class like making small talk..talking to ppl left out in the class to make them feel better(thats what i do in the past cause i hate that feeling) and joking with ppl when all i really want to pay attention/do my work/just zoning out. somehow i just feel these ppl arent worth my effort that much cause they are just hi-bye ppl and some dont even care abt u in truth. so why make the effort? perhaps im feeling really exhausted deep down already with ppl? with the superficiality? with homework? with life? i dont know. i do really feel exhausted deep down really. sometimes u make time out for people bt people take it for granted. this time i really want some me time maybe its a struggle admist all these hi bye ppl we meet. just look at ur contacts list and make out how many ppl can actually be on ur speed dial when u need someone to talk to abt ur problems, someone to just have dinner with u tmr. thats what i call MY FRIENDS. the others sometimes i dunno why they exist and when we do really meet up its like a yearly event and we start going on on how much we miss each other and everything when i dun miss them at all how can i miss u when u din even appear significantly in my life before? i have been having this kind of feeling recently for abt 2 weeks already maybe this reveals why i have stopped making an effort. maybe. and this in turns cause me to slip into loner mode even more easily even more readily. bt right now.im totally alright being a loner. (: is that what they say just do what u feel like doing?hopefully all will turn out better. (: im having a mock exam tmr morn and a report due on thurs(which i havent started at all) and here im!

2010-03-10T23:57:00.000-08:00

OMG.so long nv blogged.been lazy most of the time.and no mood.lol.okok just lazy.cause i rmb-ed i did want to blog sometime back regarding some emotional issue but LAZY.haha.so amazing that i got so inspired reading other people's blogs that i am here now! i even forgotten my passwords a few times already.desert blog sia.lol

had a conver with a friend not so recently.ard feb,and i was then busy with presentations, poems

2009-07-30T18:00:00.000-07:00

2009-07-28T20:23:00.000-07:00

haha the stupid photo refused to load even after i tried like so many times!so aargh!forget it! lol i shall try it next time! recently theres alot on my to-do list not done i dunno whether its me or what but its frustrating! like ok i wanted to cut my hair at toni and guy theres a card thats allows me to enjoy a complimentary haircut but i cant seem to make time for it! its like 10am-2pm which is an awkward timing to wake up cut hair then come home cause the academy is in bugis.and the slots is like whoa!all snapped up! like i called on friday and the whole of nextwk is like full! like grr.then i tried calling my usual haridresser and she is like yeah full also! like what the!is it like the haircutting season now? zz! so thats my first thing wanting to do for v long but still haven been done!! ZZ! second thing is i need to do some uni tuition fee stuff but need my parents to go along w me and my parents are only free in the morning! i tried to booked them and TOLD them lets go this wed k they say ok ok but when i woke up everybdy's out alrdy! its like double ZZ so left with this fri since tmr im gg sentosa.its quite frustrating cause i need to go out also and the uni thing is like hindering me lah! cause if im off for morning activities i cant come back in time and if im gg out later i need to finish asap like by 12noon or sth so i hao bu rong yi find a day!! and its the weight and worries thats manifesting in my brain tht i wished i can take that off my todo list! third thing is my contacts! i keep wanting to settle this also but the optical shop closes early so by the time i reached home from work bathe and go to the shop its like closing soon..i wonder how working ppl ever make it to banks and optical shops.AARGH!! and the thing is i dunno how long these things last so i cant plan my schedule properly. and theres gss right now,ending on 31st july so theres like a mad rush to shop AGAIN.i really hate to rush! 31st july is like this fri lah! haii.so my todo list is like ever growing! OK. I SWEAR IM GG TO SETTLE THE UNI STUFF THIS FRIDAY.but i cant squeeze in others leh! AARGH!!! sian.i shall go draw up my todo list properly on paper NOW.

2009-07-17T08:25:00.000-07:00

hey hey im back!recently realised my to-do list is LONG! haha i shall try to fulfil! haha!
work is getting tiresome and i am facing with lesser and lesser ppl i miss my colleagues! haha!
heres a photo of the bday celebration of theng and mf! (:had fun that day! fish and co really nicer than manhattan! but service not v good initially! and the glasshse is absolutely nice!

2009-07-09T07:42:00.000-07:00

im suddenly checking out ss501 haha! cause im suddenly in love with the songs from boys over flowers!again..ya i know.haha UR MAN sounds not bad! and check out jihoo wearing specs in YOU ARE MY HEAVEN lol.
todays my medical checkup and the urine test was done in an ignorant way(i mean everybdy not just me k) lol but not gross ah just that everybdy quite helpless lol but surprisingly the nurses are mostly quite friendly! im truly surprised. haha but it was super efficient excpet the xray waiting part and i saw tons of ah thiongs sian. looks like theres not gonna be any shuai ges.zz.
HA.but guess what! i saw qiqin! and seok kian!too bad din see wanling! haha,and qiqin seemed really nice and friendly hope we can be classmates and she wont find me weird then. LOL haha! and the xray gown is free and quite comfortable leh actually! and sandy's father was damned nice to drive us to and fro,saving me my transport fare! and i embarrassingly fell asleep in the car in the morning! LOL i am not sure whether they noticed! lol and he looks quite friendly at first i thought he will look intimidating! looks like my fears are unfounded! (:
AND FINALLY i tried butter manju cake!! i have been wanting and desiring for that since jc days i keep telling my classmates but after sch the queue was v long! and nobdy wanted to queue but today i decided to queue for me and my mom! i bought 4 two for red bean two for custard! i like a mix of both! the red bean was sweet and zhen cai shi liao!and custard was surprisingly not coyingly sweet! so mix! haha but my mom found it ex! its $1.30 each for a teenypiece.and the dough quite common,u can actually taste similar ones from mr bean and a shop in taka basement! (: haha so bu zhi de! but nice.
bought a new bread from yamazaki in tampines one.tempted by the eclairs! gonna try it! haha its called black seaseme bread! (:
OH and btw i keep having bizzarre and vivid dreams past few days/.i dreamt that i was walking past tpjc but goodness knows why im wearing tpjc uniform.the time period is now so i couldnt be schooling,then i saw my juniors carrying sth heavy then i helped them with it,and ended up past a classroom then saw my classmates they keep exclaiming eh u look like huihoon! eh look! look at her eyes looks like right! then i dunno why i cant tell them im huihoon but after all the exclaims i couldnt take it i whispered to myself,ya im huihoon what.in a very soft tone.then one of my classmates heard,then he ran after me and shout my name looking for me,but i ran out all the way to another building and he followed,and i keep turning around,trying to avoid,but the building had alot of complicated maze like looking things i just keep anyhow turning then when i was safe,i feel safe,i squat down and cried,the i woke up le.weird right! lol

2009-07-09T05:57:00.000-07:00

recently very disappointed with a friend,thought shes usually the sensitive,supportive one because she herself also dont want to be treated that way,but well,she totally disappoints me and im really more disappointed than angry,and i realised disappointment affects more badly than anger cause anger can subside if the person cheers u up and u forget abt it,and its a momentarily thing.but once disappointment sets in,it wont be lifted easily unless u regain the trust in that person.so right now,i dunno why,even though sometimes when we talk she makes me laugh,but i now feel like i cant tell her anything except superficial things like what i can tell everybody in general,like we became from good friends to now merely friends.i feel like shes so nonchalant that shes not even making an effort but she tells everybdy she is.i cant even feel it.but at least i know i got other friends who really care abt me! (: and im quite glad for that.because of this incident,it inspired me to write somethings.i wrote nice things each close friend did for me that it major and significant in my heart,like unique incidents and special qualities.it made me appreciate my friends.

2009-06-08T21:46:00.000-07:00

wow this is probably the most frequent i have blogged.haha :\ haha
anyway,discovered a huge ulcer dementing my mouth! i have already put ALOT of salt and what can i do?hope it heals!! yucks,gross i know.haha
gg for the robinsons briefing thingy this afternoon;feeling nervous.
when had i not felt nervous?when i went back to tpjc;YES tpjc.i felt my breaths become shorter,and i couldnt take in enough air! lol siao right,but after i went into the audi and saw hx,my pres,or shld i say ex-pres, i calmed down miraculously and i had to take in deep huge breaths to compensate the lack of air just now!
ok moronic i guess.
and im constantly disturbed by uni and hostel stuff,whether i shld live or not,considering the pros and cons,i have already seriously weighed everything carefully! but still cant come to a conclusion..ZZzz well,my close friends shld have heard it all,so i dun want to repeat here again..FAN!!!
i feel that out of the eight months break we get, i guess i liked december most! its the time where nothing,and i really mean NOTHING comes into our way! jan theres some chinese new yr frenzy and feb i dun really like i dunno why,march is like everybdy started panicking on a levels results coming out(but obviously not yet luh) then apr it came and there was overwhelming open houses,and all the hey where u intending to go,pondering,considering,then may i had to go for interviews,my friends' interviews,listen to worries on whether we will get accepted,then june,theres appeals,whether i shld accept this or that,whether we shld live in hostel,when do i quit my job?july is the worst of all,which orientation am i gg(seriously,im not exactly thrilled on this) ,IT fair or school for our laptops,talks tea sessions and more of this! so december is the most carefree times! and ppl dun approach u asking
1) did u get a job? (huh..you didnt?) (oh..u did)
2) how's ur a levels results? (bad?oh im worse!) (As'? wow u are damned li hai! aiya then u no need to worry lor..not like me..)
3) where u intending to go? (where else can we go?)
4) if nus accepts u ntu also accepts u , which will u choose? (reasonable..)
5) are u living in hostel? (eh if okay i live with u k! comes the response of those ppl i never really known as friends,much less roommates) (aiya dun live lah just go home lah! like,-_- that doesnt help)
6) where u buying laptops?
and the list goes on and on..i dun blame them,cause i know everybdy's concerned,i know.
but u get what i mean during dec,nothing like this happens?
and what i LOVE most abt dec is everything is still within control and theres TIMEEE for alot of unfulfilled wishes and dreams..like classes,driving,earning more money...(:

2009-06-07T21:55:00.000-07:00

): hey there again
recently i feel so betrayed.i feel that friends are a tricky issue,just when i thought i had given my all, being concerned,sharing all i know and love,along with her and i was quite glad that i helped my friend cause i sensed that the receiver feels grateful and happy,the receiver suddenly changes within a few days after i have got nothing to share,nothing to give for that period, the receiver becomes cold,sends out signals 'thats all i need,'and i am in total shock.
someone said,was she like that in the past? i can reply firmly,no. but now,its hard to say,two incidents in a row i feel that my friendship is contract based.our friendship has a validity date,and then it dies,waiting to be revived by another event,then it will be like the past again,she joyously talking to me,and i had to pretend nth has happened and we immersed in happiness and laughter,sometimes genuine,sometimes pretentious. i feel like i have to constantly please her.
sometimes i feel whn i needed any support from my friends,i ended up consoling them and pleasing them that i have left myself in a state that im completely calm about my own situation, i dont even know whether i was left with nothing of myself, hence the state where i am devoid of emotion.because i no longer have the time and energy for myself,i sometimes feel as if i am nothing. and when i needed any help,any listening ear,i do not want the snides.i can understand the sigh,like 'she's going on it again',and the bubbling urge to interrupt me or give me the uninterested expression.i know listening can hardly be the most exciting thing to do,but asking how's life yet refusing me a chance to answer,what the! i try to listen.i really did. but the same people i tried listening to hardly reciprocates the gesture,i dont even know now am i expecting too much.i was there for her.but when i needed her,she was miles away.
i mean,obviously our emotional needs are different,i give whatever i can,a listening ear,some advice,some help,whatever i can render,but what i want to say is my problems maybe different from the norm,but i still need someone to listen to my rants! i feel that when i needed everyone else they werent there they always had somewhere to go,but when i can be independent and help myself,they suddenly appear from all over the world,i really mean from all over the world,(PISSED*at the thought) and ask me 'hey,wanna meet up?' 'hey,lets chat' 'hey,want go swim?' 'hey,lets go out!' 'hey,how's ur day?' and all i wanna say is WHERE WERE YOU GUYS???

2009-06-04T07:26:00.000-07:00

Kim Hyun-Joong!! he's ji hoo! he's so charming in the show! and in real life,he seems funny YET cool! omg!

BOYS OVER FLOWERS crazzzee!

2009-06-04T06:33:00.000-07:00

listening to an old song i love "always be my baby" by david cook..went for numerous interviews these days cause im suddenly overwhelmed by an empowering feeling to get a job and make money! as much as possible! haha so i went for breadtalk's (which stunned every of my friends) its for a customer service consultant so it sounds a little different with the conusltant word so i decided to go for it, a consultant! haha and bengawan solo's sales associates which pays four per hr which means i can work in limited areas, and a few interviews which i din made thru the questioning round cause it din match with my schedule or their demands..like fulltime job at accessories shops, i found one that works for me! a weekend job! but they said its a one yearthing! that means i need to sacrifice my weekends for a year! even if its school-based events,so well, how can that be possible? haha but well, i intend to stay in iras as it turns out cause they have insufficient manpower since there's a mad rush in everyone leaving around end june and even before that! haha i would! if i had enough money to spend for the whole of july and uni stuff..but i spend too much so i need my income! its so flexible also,my leaves, so i guess i shall stay on and work two to three days a week depending on my VOLUME of spending,haha! hope my bank account continues GROWING and growing and GROWING! haha

been accepted by ntu chinese by the way! half contented half undecided cause i see whats happening around me its such a chaotic year of uni applications like overwhelming applications to FASS and courses that are more humanities and social then mad rush of ppl applying and calling to check and so on..you sort of get the picture..everywhere..so im contented with what i get even if its not the first choice! now pondering whether i shld live in a hostel..

2009-05-11T22:06:00.000-07:00

anyway,im poring over the amore fitness website now to try to register myself for the mass but mini workout at tampinesone! im so excited for kickboxing-thats what i wanted to do and still wants to do, i think kickboxing allows me an outlet to vent also lol like when im angry or sad abt sth at least i wont be put off by exercise,and im thinking yoga and pilates too but im thinking maybe i can do that when im abit older when i dont feel like jumping ard and moving too much lol a.k.a when im old. lol so im thinking of trying kickboxing first! i hope i have some company for this cause the word MASS workout sounds abit intimidating esp when i havent exercised for like ages..lol im so unfit now! haha the last exercise was like hongkong? haha when i was climbing up flights of stairs cause its such a hilly area and walking or running along a steep slope in granville if i dun rmb wrongly! haha the intense and brisk walking,im convinced, toned our butts and legs,which i have no complaints abt lah, (: (: but after we came back it was back to singapore-styled living..barely moving but keep eating..tsk tsk. haha well, some of hk's photos are still here w me,i promise i will upload them asap! (: i missed hk already some of the folod and everything except the hills and ocean park(i dun belong there) and the peak..apparently..on the other side, i love ARGYLE centre!!! its like a mini far east plaza and its damned good for shopping!! its relatively cheap and the clothes and dresses are all quite nice,with a few shops selling higher quality goods as exceptions.AND the mall opens till 2am!! acc to a sign outside the mall but i guess they close at ard 12 plus mostly some around 1am! so whenever we are outside and the malls and everything has closed down,we can head there! its like never ending lah!imagine us gg there 3 days out of our 5 day trip and we are not sian just overwhelmed, u can imagine ya? haha!
look forward to our food pics soon!! (:

2009-05-11T22:05:00.000-07:00

MY GODDDD!! haha its been how long since i blogged right, this blog was like dead already since SEPTEMBER! haha! ok im here to revive it,hopefully!

2008-09-05T04:54:00.000-07:00

omg, i just read thoroughly books: p.s i love you (in chinese! what a pity cause I WANT TO READ IT IN ENGLISH!) i mean if its originally in english then i want to read it in english! not some translated version! the english jokes doesnt even tally and not as funny!) but well, have to make do with that since i cant find the english version unless i pay seventeen bucks.
and read shopaholic and baby! I LIKE LUKE!!! after finishing those books(it is super hard to put down) i feel like getting married, i know im crazy like at such an age!! lol i also dont feel ready lah and!! i m not interested in getting married, (like marriage??) it is just the feeling that u can love someone that much to WANT to get married and your husband also feels the same! it IS such a wonderful and HAPPY feeling. but marriage..erhem! is not easy to face..haha lets just hope the future is bright for us..heh heh heh some ppl knows what i mean...heh

2008-09-05T04:20:00.000-07:00

i haven update my blog for such a long time isnt it, well it is due to some stupid reasons that i hate to even mention,so well, forget about that, recently theres so much happening that i havenot blogged like the olympics(i missed both the opening and closing ceremony) but i watched that exciting table tennis! (: singapore played a part in! i din realise table tennis(or its another more 'cute' name-ping pong) can be so exciting, i mean, c'mon, u dun even need to run to catch that teeny weeny ball(u know, as compared to bowling,hello?) and the bat or the racket or whatever thats called is also relatively light, as compared to tennis? or weightlifting. lol not that i admire weightlifters(sorry i kinda think thats one of the stupidest sport) and olympics kind of get me thinking so what is my or our favourite sport to watch or play? i think gynastics and diving is kind of graceful, tennis is nice to watch, i think volleyball and hockey is not bad also(cause i know some basics) the others i think im kinda left out, and swimming ends quite fast, with swimmers ending laps in less than a minute apparently, and i cant even recognise who's swimming under the immense bubbles and intensive strokes and of course their swimming caps and goggles. lol but hey michael phelps left such a great impact right? everyone's saying phelps here and there like my schmates, the radio, even ppl on the bus.lol but its just a phase in my life-nth too impactful or great, actually...(: i know it may be different for some fanatics and of course the sportsmen themselves, though im quite excited about the youth olympics IN SINGAPORE-god,i have such patriotism. lol.
another huge thing in my life is well,prelims, im so affected by it,like duh. but i did set a timetable and....haha i din followed it exactly, too stuck on math,which is not a good thing, u will know why once my results is out,obviously its an U no condolences needed. its expected by me, my math tutor(both sch and home) though we might be so disappointed,but well what can i say? im born with that weakness in math,and er physics,chemistry? do u notice a chemistry lookalike question in the math tys, it is so grr lah, i think u sort of have to balance the equation! like i m super horrible at what? BALANCING EQUATIONS! -_-! well, and my other subjects were also dragged by my math, i mean intensive math practices leave u with barely enough time to cover others right? well, just hope for the best. and, GOOD LUCK TO ALL MY FIRENDS HAVING PRELIMS!! i cant do it, but u guys CAN! :D work hard!

2008-07-27T04:36:00.001-07:00

FOOD GALORE!!!! :D :D

2008-07-27T04:30:00.000-07:00

i had all along thought it will never change, since we've ride it over rocky moments/situations and tide over the waves, but it was until then i changed my mind. but still, i still hold few glimmers of hope that it is merely due to some reasons and the situation we're in for now. well, months do change why not it? its just i feel sad for it and for me. im thinking of what im left with now.
well, its time to start thinking what is REALLY worth ur time and effort so we'll start treasuring these things. actually somethings-its easier to put in effort rather than not putting any or trying to put little.

2008-06-24T06:30:00.000-07:00

im lost, sad(seriously, its even underrated-how many times have u even felt sad in ur life before?), burying my head(and heart) deeper though i cant help it.
but why?
its a feeling deep within, that welches so hard that it jerks me into harsh reality.
i hope the next time, it will heal, but i know, things arent the same anymore, and i need to be immunised, be awake so i wont get tugged the second round.
but still, i enjoy and crazily love and relished every moment that sparked excitement(:

note to self: pls wake up.

2008-06-24T06:20:00.000-07:00

i realise my schlife had been so hectic that i can hardly even sit down and talk to my classmates lesiurely-as in gossip, have fun, we have no time to talk abt other things, besides homework(seriously,no joke), tests, assignments, teachers, datelines, A LEVELS, A grades and Ugrades. The A grades we just dream, the U grades are the ones the class is getting. lol. maybe the words that appears most in our conversation is tired, fail already. thats all ok.
and the problem is we cant slow down! I cant slow down! theres still millions of things to be done and I WANT to score well for my A levels and nobdy can stop me actually.
Its actually MYSELF. me losing motivation, losing focus, being tired, i dunno! but i wont let anybdy ruin my A's for me, and this time im bent on, stronger from the setback 2 yrs back, to achieve what I WANT TO ACHIEVE.
(: wish me luck!

2008-06-24T06:12:00.000-07:00

Baby Baby
When we first met, I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped into one with a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden you went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock that spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow

rihanna's rehab (:
yes i do feel

2008-06-03T05:30:00.000-07:00

recently, i met with some troubles, and the first person i thought of was a girlfriend, i was thinkin i want to talk to her and complain and rant non-stop. buti din, i din want to trouble her too much and bore her to death. i was afraid. afraid of losing my only listening ear. im sorry to sound so pessismistic on my blog like, again, but i feel like i din hv much friends whom we treasured ea other and treated ea other as true, good, old friends. i have alot of friends, sure. but as i scrolled down the contact list on sunday, i realised my troubles have to go down my throat again.
im so afraid to bare my heart now to anyone, because i realised sth,im afraid of sth, im really really scared of losing sth. is it that im too pessismistic? T.T

2008-06-03T05:16:00.000-07:00

heyy going off for camp soon, not feeling very well, so expectations of fun at the camp is diminished. i hope tmr i will feel better! AND i have not really done any hw since the start of hols! uh-oh.maybe i need to get away frm home.. :(
feel like eating tim tams, drinking hot cocoa, snuggling with warm huge cushions and pillows and blankets with air con on, tv on and remote at my hand, a romance novel by my side to read during commercials. thats will be so cool.
haha right now i only have timtams, A pillow, A blanket and a romance novel i have read a thousand times-literally.
zzz and i haven packed my stuff yet.. my life's been such a waste.

2008-05-29T05:19:00.000-07:00

super hilarious :D prepare to laugh like crazy (: love the crazy storyline!

love ashton kutcher-super cute with the polished look in one of the scenes (:

2008-05-28T08:04:00.000-07:00

NEED/MUST undergo CONSTRUCTION in certain aspects of MY LIFE! for my own good, so i wont feel hurt anymore.. i hope. i have been bothered and i must climb up the ladder.

2008-05-28T07:47:00.000-07:00

i feel like iam revolving around the same world, same people, same environment, same place-only that the personality of people closest to me, and me myself change. i think i have changed but maybe i din notice it, i only felt it recently, i have been influenced and shaped by new people around me, and the environment i am in for 12 hrs of my every day that i have become such a stranger to myself. because i feel like i cant change back. i have already moved on. so has everyone else. some people have moved on to the state that i cant even recognise them. like, some people i knew and know have become so insensitive that i feel HURT, like how u ignore ur friends to pursue ur own selfish motives? insensitive to not only the feelings but sth else, like u were not being genuinely nice to me. i feel betrayed. but there is nth to do.

2008-05-24T07:54:00.001-07:00

i changed my blogskin! i kinda forgot the steps..hope it turns out right

2008-05-24T07:26:00.000-07:00

well, the GSS is HEREEEE!!!! it started quite early in fact, that i din even realised! bt its good, im really in the mood for shopping suddenly, cause i need alot of things!! a new wallet, new handbag, new shorts, and new dress. and i guess fashion mags sorta influence us right? i saw a pair of shorts with really good cutting and shape and a cool shade-$36.90..hmm should i buy? its white but not really white, maybe off-white? and a zebra-print clutch gg for only $16! lol and loads more! i even NEED to buy books..lol.econs reference bks..and math tys. lol all are ex man.
and once im in the mood for shopping, its kinda hard to brake..lol. but i dunmind studying outside, anything to get out of the hse. whoooo! :D
suddenly realised the hols is a little short and everyone's having their midyrs after june so last wk of hols not really feasible to go out, ya? so we got not much time left!! cant wait to play...

2008-05-19T06:15:00.000-07:00

how am i gg to describe this? hmm. actually, its a mystery. but i want to explore it, find its deeper meanings and search for its better qualities and savour the greatness of bliss. we want to explore it, i notice. there was the kingdom, with 2 princes. both were charming. there were 4 princesses, not all of them were beautiful, but all had their strengths. A was elegant, bubbly and fun, B was intelligent and nice, C was vivacious but sensitive, D was funny but shy. all 4 princesses were in love with the 2 princes, however, they did not voice out their feelings but they agreed that both princes, being charming and nice were very eligible as their husbands. however, all of them knew that prince number 1 had professed his love for D and D had accepted it, though she did not reciprocated his love because the other 3 girls knew, deep down in their hearts, that actually D liked both princes and she wasnt satisfied. it was just that D did not openly announced that. B was of course heartbroken, that her prince had his heart given away, however being the nice person she was, she accepted the reality and turned her attention to her friendship among the 4 princesses instead of love. A and C both were madly in love with prince number 2, but they did not know that both of them liked the prince and they remained the best of friends. prince number two did not know of both the princesses' crush on him, he was instead interested in a girl from a nearby town. the girl was beautiful. but the girl was married to a guy her father matchmade her to. though it seemed like a forced marriage, both parties were happy because they liked each other. prince number 2 was sad, but not to the extent that he was heartbroken, he was not so madly in love with the girl yet and he did not even knew the girl well. who will prince number 2 like in the future? we dun know. but i definitely hope it will be A or C. but when will prince number 2 notice them?

2008-05-19T06:03:00.000-07:00

last night, adeline called me and we chatted awhile abt angel's party, and iam glad i can tell her some things regarding the party-the embarrassing moments, the funny jokes(haha) and somethings i felt-and there are quite alot of things we thought we shall talk face-to-face/.strangely, im looking forward to that session. haha cause i have alot to say..oh man. and i am gg to need advice.
anyway, i went to bedok lib read mag last wk and i went past the galilee cafe and i suddenly thought of the times we spent studying there, with kat! (: (: (: definitely wonderful times to reminise. a maths?! haha and i saw the menu changed slightly-the design/the food im not sure, but i am certain the prices have changed ha. and i saw lifeng there studying while leaving. shes wearing the pirates shirt. haha.

2008-05-18T00:49:00.000-07:00

omg. 17th may was such a hectic and nerve wracking day! nevertheless, it was thrilling and exciting, so it was more on the positive side! :D i miss 4n ppl, like i have this strong desire to have this closeness surround us and the bond that will never break. i know its not possible, but still its this desire deep in my heart. no matter how isolated how lonely i feel at the moment, with them, i still have the some undescribable feeling within me that encourages me and pulls me closer to eveyone of them, i feel that at the end of they day, im not lonely. in fact, i have this explosive bliss inside me that refuses to go away which really feels good, like i havent felt like that for months. esp, someone. i think (i think) i still kinda like him a teeny weeny bit, even though i might gush over eye candies and cute guys, but i dunno, i feel like, unless i find someone like him, (define someone like him: his character/personality or the feeling i have towards him) i think actually, maybe, he will still have a small place in my heart? (omg, this sounds gross!) ok i better stop it. i dun voice this out very often, because i feel as if everyone have moved on, and i din wan to remain at the same spot. i dunwant to remain at the same spot,actually. well, ok forget it. but well, from the party, i feel as if i realised alot. about myself, my identity, whats impt actually, and abt people around me. what an inspirational party! haha!
btw, it was really nice talking to angel, safirah, shaikha!! omg i really miss them lah! they are so funny!!! and hey eh i am not a gossip girl ok-not gossipy enuff actually haha! and their laughter can be so infectious! haha! rmb prom night? omg everyone was damned nice and helpful and FARNNNYY!! haha! :D not to forget the others like weichoy, yw, zachary, louis, kaiwu, dz, nuriman (-_-) haha nuriman was angry at us for a few times that day in fact, sorry nuriman! u are just too funny! haha sad to say there were not much girls there, so ya thanks we were quite targetted! -_-! but nevertheless we had fun!!! appreciated the trio-wc,yw,zac--quitefunny/ha. :D but actually thanks for the small grp everyone had a chance to talk to everyone. :D love 4n...

2008-05-11T05:39:00.000-07:00

suddenly its been a very long time since i read ppl's blogs. i realise it can be very interesting! haha not that its fun to probe into people's lives but u get alot of perspectives on certain things, not to mention alot of pics! but i think i need to find more sources cause usually ppl not so kong xian update everyday what haha. and its good to read blogs of ppl from different schs, different age groups..exposure..haha! well, i guess its refreshing to blog-hop after i 'book-hop' for so many mths lah!
btw my G.C no batt already!! its such a good excuse not to do math! finally, a weekend free of math! haha, im like, enslaved by math but math is really ALOT so if i dun do it just accumulates like crazy and everything is like so fast, u need loads of practice and sometimes u must spend hrs on just a few questions and so what? u still cant solve it! pek chek ok! anyway recent topics like hypothesis testing (hello ztest) and correlation totally cant do w/o our best friend the gc so ya, i cant do anything like my h.t assignment and correlation tutorial. im gg to die tmr during the 1 period break i have just b4 math. must do both! this weekend ihv been SUPER slack u can barely count any substantial thing ive done but i enjoy the slackiness man. i had econs test on sat morning and after that i shopped for abt 5hrs straight after eating. omg and the mood for shopping is aroused! aargh! but my wish cannot be realised due to lack of time and lack of CASH. everytime u try to enjoy sth, at the back of ur head a voice whispers " pls be reminded u dun have much time left towards ur a levels" and all ur mood just goes down the drain. must study hard alrdy lah!!!

2008-05-11T04:33:00.000-07:00

today's 11th May, mothers' day!
i know all mothers are wei da!
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to my mom too!! :) shes very nice haha

2008-05-06T06:18:00.000-07:00

my life's a mess. i DONT know which direction shld i take-its like its not right everywhere right now theres only one word to describe me EVRYday...-VEXED its so worrying like i cant do anything. like i cant go any way! IM STUCK IN A STUPID RUT! aarghh and the worst thing! no one can help me! and i cant tell anyone abt it cause its a long story and not everyone can know about it..besides what can they do after listening to hours of the story? THEY CANT! seriously..help help help help help...i dunno what to do.. i think i need counselling but the one at my sch is not v effective acc to my schmates haii and she looks super weird. i need some advice. and im not some normal kid who faces stress ok. this is a much bigger problem that i couldnt escape no matter where i go now, or in future. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. i hate this. i wish some angel would lift me out of this. i would say a million thanks. seriously.

i feel like i have a headache everyday. and i cant take it anymore. how do i move out/where do i get money for my expenses, like hello i have four years of uni edu in front of me..and i have nth much in my bank account...oh man someone..pls help..i cant imagine my days esp after a levels..im trying to push back the negative thoughts but it just keep coming back and reminding me i have to strategise and get out of it asap. if i start planning after my a levels it might be too late. UGGGGGHHH
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GOING BONKERS

2008-04-17T06:17:00.000-07:00

sch's been terribly hectic and i have been staying in sch till 6 plus 7pm every day of the wk except fri-that i have no fave days anymore-theres hw to be handed up everyday and so much of it! remedials have been weighin on me-ither commitments too, its totally different from J1s. i feel totally numb right now-numb to all the exhaustion, friendships, hw, research that i shld be experiencing. i am so fake. i want to find myself back-be the real me.
i am like squeezing all my feelings back into my body-sounds gross, but its quite erm, apt? haha! i miss having someone u feel close to, to talk to everyday, so little things dunseem that little, and funny things can sound funnier, birthdays can be more real, small deeds that are kind can reach all of us...everything doesnt sound redundant and inferior and superficial.
i know i shouldnt grumble so much, complains, etc...
u know i read one inspiring msg recently in a bk-be the friend u wish to have to ur friends.
and i did just that-but i felt worse-maybe i need to exercise that on people i regard as friends? :) but the msg is true-:) try it! :)

2008-04-17T06:12:00.000-07:00

haha, i am beginning to see my eye candy in a new light- a more positive and warm light, i believe hes a real gentleman, hes cute(obviously), and hes definitely different from the rest. plus, hes tall but hes not lanky. hes got it! :) haha. :) whoo :D
recently, i realise someone has been quite nice, and a little funny, quite helpful-but we seldom talk-sometimes it really awkward, i like how i feel abt him, with him, but i dunthink i can further our r/s-and i am not really eager on that either. weird, but true. i wish we would talk more though. that way, perhaps i can be sure of how im feeling. and thats really great. :)

2008-04-17T05:50:00.000-07:00

i wished people around me would stop pissing me off. i wish people around me would be less dumb. i dont mean it in the mean way, i am just trying to tell them-stop it-stop acting cute and dumb in front of me. stop acting as if im ur 24hr intelligence system responsible for ur every useless need. i wish u would go off. i wish i was alone sometimes.
last year, i felt alone. i dun have friends for every single break-im fine with that sometimes except when u have to eat-its kinda tough then, but this year, im talking in class when i dunwant to, listen to stories i feel like shouting hey, its not funny-its dumb-stop being childish and loud-disrupting my life-im not catching evrything in class that i want to, im not gg to places i want to, i cant eat whenever i want to, i cant tell my heartfelt feelings and secrets to anyone-they are so loud and childish-yet, i have to tell them when is break, when is tests, where is class, what to do with ur crush, what to study for tests, how to ans the teachers when she calls u in class and u dunno the ans because u were busy telling me abt ur childish life, then u blame me for not telling u the ans, not telling u the earlier the tests causing u to not have enuff time to study, its all my fault. i wish ppl would stop doing that to me and claiming credit for everything else. u know what, i dunwant to go out with u, i dunwant to watch movies with u, i dunwant to study with u, i dunwant to go shopping with u, i dunwant to eat with u, i dun even want to talk to u. so would u pls stop whining and pestering me like a pesky mosquito right in my face?! thanks alot.

2008-04-04T04:26:00.000-07:00

i thought of one of my previous teachers, the way he teaches-it pushes me to maximise my potential, yet it isnt that stressed u know, he makes it up by being funny. and i know i can glare at him and snicker abt him w/o being punished-i guess he can count as my outlet of frustration and anger-HAHA! too bad for him, but he takes it out at my class also lah, so it isnt that rosy u see. but his teachings have make me become better and his style of talking to us abt our studies-being serious,motivated, really inspires me to try it out-though i din say haha! he still thinks im doubtful of his methods haha! compared to the current teacher, i feel as if i m moving backwards...i dunno, or maybe its just me being abit lazy and laidback this yr? i wish i culd buck up man and be motivated once more-lol i hardly even step into the sch lib nowadays lah!and j2s are supposed to go there more often-to study and chiong!!!

2008-04-04T04:18:00.001-07:00

even though i suck at sports, haha,i like volleyball! i cant say i love the game yet, but 'like' sounds good too, but ur arms gotta be pretty strong? i mean, its obvious right, volleyball uses the body part arms the most right? so our pe teacher always ask us to do push ups in a different way, anyway, i cant even do proper push ups already lah, then he keep, "eh,eh oi, u dun do push ups like this ok!" then he demo the correct way, then he say continue! then i tried to change and shift and adjust to the right position but i think i still look the same, in the wrong position cause i heard him shout at me again "stomach down lah, but dun touch the floor!" oh push ups man...haha.
which reminds me of track and field meets-i havenot train my sprinting yet..haha, being lazy..but relay abit hard to train alone leh, and no one to take timings for me..haha. but i guess i will, no i MUST train, if not our class relay...i want to win quite badly man.

2008-04-04T03:57:00.000-07:00

ohman,it was such a panicky night man,i was rushing for an essay that i have to discuss with the teacher today, and i define an essay as one two-sided a4 paper or maybe 3 pages? little did i know its written report in disguise! i need to include intro, tables,references,charts, annex blah and abt 2-3000 word essay. im like shit lah,when i started at ard 9pm thinkin that i can breeze thru it and slp at 11plus,little did i know of its written report nature and i rushed thru it till 3am but still couldnt finish lah(like durh, we finish wr with a timeframe of half a yr u know) i cant take it anymore lah, and left the unfinished work,luckily i've done enuff research so i just mumbled the stuff thru..luckily the teacher was ok-she found the work flimsy and insufficient, but she just told me to touch up..whew.

2008-03-30T06:07:00.000-07:00

the weather is seriously disgustingly humid. the more disgusting thing is my specs keep falling down from the bridge of my nose-maybe its hinting for me to change my specs/wear contacts. actually i dunmind having a new pair of specs-new design/brighter colors wuld be nice-maybe my specs can even match the trend now-bright candified spring colors-lol u define it. maybe an orange one or a red one will do fine-or shld i take a white one? actually the colour doesnt matter too much,its usually the frame that will make or break ur entire image of the specs and u. lol. well, im too lazy as u can see-with the lack of contacts, lol. anyway back to the disgusting weather that makes u feel sticky within an hr of bathing,like so pek chek can. raining can cool down the place and me lah,but the weather will still be humid after the rain leh//how ah? geog ppl..i have lost touch with my geog..after hearing friends ard me talk abt eng lit, i know it isnt easy doing, but it sure seems funner than science and math, PLEASE. i want to read pride and prejudice in detail, and learn great ex in a different and possibly greater depth, and theres one bk by allan edgar poe? i heard so much abt him-being sadistic/haha! im intersted in 1984 too, like its so intriguing and well-known,like im curious! haha. but i cant even cope with my work now,well..haha

2008-03-28T19:15:00.000-07:00

WE HAD SEMI FINALS for 12X100 m RELAY on wed! and im SO DAMNED NERVOUS that my whole bdy go numb-stupid me! and GUESS WHAT! WE GOT INTO THE FINALS!!!! whoohoo!! yay! but its so embarrassing to run in front of whole sch when u are the slowest among the fast SPRINTERS!! yikes!! meaning I HAVE TO TRAIN!!!! hope my class will win-FIRST??!!! yippee doddle doo!

2008-03-28T19:11:00.001-07:00

yesterday i went out with adeline mok! (: and we catch up with alot, and its quite fun also-i wish we could go out more and properly-like wearing our home clothes-i dun mind gg out after sch to catch up for awhile-like an hr or 2 or just for a dinner, but our timetable just..grrr..i miss j1 days where i can meet my frens after sch and not go home after 8. like dismissing us at 2plus so we can go have lunch and chill and still be able to go home at 6plus after chatting for awhile. haiyo, that applies to every of my fren lah. GRR

2008-03-28T19:05:00.000-07:00

im so unexcited abt prom ok-im not v close with the ppl im sitting w and besides, they are all in a clique one so its kinda weird, and left out. and prom is not just sitting thru a dinner, u have to get prom dress(the stressiest part of prom) and accessories,hair,makeup,blah and of course u have to get it w ur table friends right? im not implying that they are not nice-some of them are really nice-just that i feel very left out and who wants to feel that way during prom, besides-i feel that they din really want me to go lah, its just that the table din have enuf ppl, yeah and they need 1 more..i duno-im nt sure. i wuld rather forgo it-and go shopping myself-or work-at least i earn money and not spend a few hundreds for 1 night i know i'll wont enjoy. shit.

2008-03-28T18:42:00.000-07:00

oh man exams are finally over..my grades are suprising also-but nevertheless we must get over it-actually i kinda dun like the nagging feeling of the grades so i kinda dun really like ppl to whine abt their results too often sometimes. it depends on case-by-case basis lah,some ppl some subjects i understand. and someppl dun whine so its ok too. haha. my math was stupid-cause i practised. my econs and clit just made it-so its bad for j2, my history was half a miracle. yup. and i finally went out with my frens-and it was such a warm,nice, feeling-like finally everyone's not busy and we can have some fun! i wish i had time to shop though-i opened my closet and the clothes was like so ugh! why is it the same! like no new stuff to wear anymore-guess i need to stock up-pls give me $$$$-i m damned broke this wk-after gg karaoke,dinner-dinner/movies with my friends and plus the prom night fees is really too much for me to handle-i spent $200 in 3 days! and the worse thing is i still have things to buy! like notebooks and pens and markers-stationary always seem to cost ard less than $2 but its a delusion-add them together its horrendous ok. i think we spent more crazily in popular bookstore lah-tsk.

note: i need $$$ !!

2008-03-16T08:42:00.000-07:00

its been a stressful day again and i really hate wkends i dunno why-the lack of tv shows,the excessive crowds in town(with children runnin ard and prams blockin the way,no seats left in restaurants,more expensive movie tickets..), and some other problems...
tmr's gp paper, and i dunno why i have a sudden passion for the subject! and i had a weird dream yesterday-involves the almost everybdy i know-amazing right, and involves weird rooms with musty smells, spiral staircases, old apartments, ppl i dun usually talk to ask me weird and awkward questions, whoa and its a really long dream! haha.
well, i better get back on reading my crime and punishment notes-there's a whole stack!!
i dunno how im gg to survive gg thru some stuff no ones ever understands, and probably never will...(its nt sch and studying...)

2008-03-15T04:19:00.001-07:00

P.S I LOVE YOU is really very nice! must watch it! (: i was happy,touched and excited thruout the movie-i'd love a husband like gerry(gerald butler) hes so fun and funky to be with,no wonder holly would feel that sad after he left-and who else has such a wacky sense to send u letters after his death-letters of encouragement and love-wow. haha!

"P.S. I LOVE YOU" SYNOPSIS
Childhood sweethearts Holly and Gerry could finish each other’s sentences. No-one could imagine them apart. Until, that is, the unthinkable happens and Holly is faced with the prospect of spending the rest of her life without her husband.Then, one day, a light appears at the end of the tunnel in the form of a surprise letter. Secretly, Gerry has left her a series of notes written before he died – delivered one per month – to gently guide Holly into her new life, each finishing with: PS, I love you.

2008-03-15T03:57:00.000-07:00

i kinda miss the times when i used to hang out w someone-not in the very close sense,but at least we got to talk-privately-haha. im actually quite surprised he rmb-ed some things that i used to tell him-now that we drifted quite alot. now i think i cant really talk to him like b4..i rmb-ed i had such an awkward time wishing him happy bday lah,even in the past! we talked about stuff and he usually cheers me up(though unsuccessful) in a funny way and he can always ask me alot of qns-not that its sth i dunlike from him-like how's the previous test? how's ur newyr? when's ur bday?- but i find it so difficult to ask him back,even the same qns. not that it matter now, i cant describe it-our conversations-but i really enjoyed the company of him though it nerves me sometimes(what an irony right!) anyway, we dun really talk like in the past right now..and i really miss him-

p.s. pls dun ask me who is he. lol

2008-03-15T03:34:00.000-07:00

im so missing 4n i realise, not everybdy lah, i cant imagine myself missing weird classmates like some, u know, ppl..but yes i miss the fun-safirah,shaikha,angel and gang, the girls,basically..we always joke ard like nobdy's business, i miss the guys,even, like all those weichoy's gang,dz,kaiwu(though both of them are in my sch now,we hardly get to talk due to some ambiguous reasons-okay shant get into that) and yw,kw,louis blah.these guys are absurdly funny in some nonsensical way(haha) but we have so much fun together-laughing away to class-and even in class. in a indirect sense, they sort of made our day for the many of us-esp considering our day in sch was usually very tiring and mundane. i cant wait for a class gathering-but usually its quite ineffective isnt it-we just crowd around and hang out with our usual cliques-or the girls will hang out together but the guys at another corner of the park-i think we need to hang out together luh! i heard angel's having a bday party-im so super duper excited!! i had some good memories of her party-everyone was so fun! that means seeing everyone!!! yay!!

2008-02-21T04:59:00.000-08:00

okay i dunno why but my friendship seems very bad these weeks. this girl is really horrible okay i dunno why others cannot have an accurate judgement of ppl. its really irritating when people gets the impression that the person is nice and all when in actual fact she's not.

okay look. this idiot girl is so selfish that she thinks she is the only one that exists in this whole world. firstly, she keep pestering for me to go out, then i started asking her when's she's free and she say anyday okay. fine. then i sorted out our timings wheere we are both free and told her ab t it. then only she can have plans and she can be busy, then she choose to go out according to her mood somemore WTH STUPID SHIT (cause on that day, its really a rare chance for me to have my mom's permission to go out somewhere in town) MOREOVER, we dun have any tests on the following week, and shes the one who say anything, and call me to just plan and tell her. okay so this rare chance came along and i told her. and if she tells me she has already asked another friend out, or she need to go out with her family or there's an emergency or theres suddenly a test next week, i can accept it.

but she gives me stupid reason like i dun feel like gg out and besides i have some hw to do and i want to do my hw. ok nvm. if i give that reason back to her when i really want to do my hw and she wants to go out then she must also accept it!
but she dun. she will like huh..can u not do ur hw is it really that impt? if not just go out lah! its gg to be fun! or she will say i also have a lot of hw,i also go out why cant u do that too? then if i really cant cause i have tests on saturdays sometimes, or stuff like that she will tell the other mutual friends of ours that i dunwan to go, not i cant. then suggests to go out w/o me then when we wants to go out w/o her when shes not free, shes sort of on one side says nvm la u all just go, to me. then to the other friends, shes like, haii i rly feel like gg one leh but i cant. haii haii haii...then on and on until those friends' like okay la we go w u .this time we dun go out ok. then i din know she told them alrdy, SHE TOLD ME NOT TO TELL THE OTHERS FIRST cause she not confirm yet and then she ownself go tell them first w/o me knowing, so when i ask the others abt the thingy they told me nvm la dun go first lor. WTH. thanks alot for doing that to me la. u are the most selfless person i have ever seen. and oh yes u are such a faker.

the ultimate worst thing abt this prob? i cant tell my friends abt it cause they have such a falsely good impression of her that firstly they wont bliv me, secondly, we are all friends and actually they are sort of closer to her.i got the feeling that people are gonna remain neutral and say things like, maybe u just misunderstood her..? stuff like that. WHAT SHIT. so i might as well dunsay. she's smart-to garner support and sympathy first, and well, i just cant be such a faker, LIKE HER.

she's actually a good fren of mine, but i sort of feel like she's changed, to be more selfish and a 2sided person that i sort of lost alot of trust and faith in her as a friend, so i have alrdy made up my mind to treat her just normally like a normal friend and maybe those things i did for her/helped her in the past? no, i will consider abt giving her my help in future. i dunno what i should do and which fren i shall confide this prob with......i have been angry with her.yes.

2008-02-21T04:38:00.000-08:00

i haven been blogging for quite awhile partly due to laziness and lack of chance to really blog. anyways i think i am very unlucky these weeks- i keep getting misunderstood and yuan wang by people ard me-friends, classmates, teachers AND i dunno why i m like constantly getting into unnecessary trouble CAUSED BY MY FRIENDS. i hate it ok. it had even caused me to gradually dislike some particular friends because i had to help them do sth and by doing that sth, others misunderstood me or i get into trouble unintended by me. its ok, if i get into trouble or i have to go thru some trouble to help out a friend-i dun mind. but depending on what u want me to help u with and what friend, right? its like u are asking to do some unnecessary things or things within YOUR responsibility, not mine, and caused me to be scolded by teachers or being late for impt stuff, take up my time when i have a major test tmr, and u dun. i have tried rejecting her but she always calls me TO MY HOME, if i tried to not pick up her calls/return her sms, then BEGS me to help her and tells me no one's there to help her and tells me its a teeny weeny partly a need on my part to help her, then tell me oh she cant this she cant that, and its hard to outrightly reject her because she's my friend, and i might need her help in REAL EMERGENCY cases someday,surely because we are together a few times a week, and we are bound to work together in some cases, i din really want to offend her but she always manages to find my breaks. and the worse thing?? my break and her breaks are the same but our breaks are different frm others, so there's like no excuse why i cant help her. and during my break, which are quite rare on somedays, i need to eat if not i sort of have no more breaks to eat already, then she comes along at the canteen and ask for me to help. and i say,why not let me grab sth eat first. then she will act real responsible(yeah right) and say this thing is kinda impt can u eat later? im like huh but then later i have no break alrdy. and she will say u dun really need to eat right? i think this thing is more impt than eating. WHAT SHIT OK. THAT THING IS VERY UNIMPORTANT OK. ITS ONLY IMPORTANT MAYBE TO U ONLY. im damned angry at her lah. like yeah u totally dun consider the feelings of others. and its not once okay. PLS, she looks for me on an average of 3 times a week, calls me 2 times a day, 5times a week just to check things with me, ask me to help her with HER stuff TOTALLY unrelated to me, and me being busy is not a reason to her. her things is always more impt than mine right? ok. if she's really that responsible, then i can say hey this's her way of handling things, but no. i realise she;s not very responsible ok and she always pushes her responsibilities to me/her other friends and when things are done, she sort of claims credit in front of everyone, but pushes the work to me behind everyone's back. SO PPL (YES YOU ALL) GOT THE WRONG IMPRESSION OF HER. oh man. if u dun have such a big head, PLS dun try to wear a big/tall hat then ask ur friends to do the work for u. YES. THANKS ALOT. stupid leh she, now i end up trying to avoid her and hoping that she dun take up any work/handle any stuff.

2008-01-16T06:38:00.000-08:00

she's on the attack again! this is 2nd part of cute baby girl series -_-!lol but shes SO CUTE!!!

2008-01-16T06:33:00.000-08:00

thats me, hair flying and messy, with a weird slogan clearly seen here on my tee! haha

2007-12-23T21:50:00.000-08:00

oh yes! i think i might have neglected or-i cant find the right word!- dun seem to care abt some of u guys, i apologise here, but i still love u guys k-merry christmas once again, and i hope we all have a blessed year ahead and may we be better BFFs, yay :D

2007-12-23T21:24:00.000-08:00

if only i was rich and had my very own room. i would paint my walls in 2 shades and have my own tv and computer right next to each other in the room. i'd have my own bookshelves and study table neat and tidy, i'd subsribe to my fave mags. I'd have decorative and cute shelves/'things' that i can hang my stuff or put my stuff accordingly. also,a nice cosy comfy armchair where i can chill whenever i want to, with a warm and fuzzy carpet under my feet to keep me warm on rainy days. my bed would lean against the wall with cute blankets and bedsheets with 2 soft pillows and a few soft toys to accompany me to sleep.I could have my own long mirror on the wall at a corner of my room with the whole array of face and body products.(wow) i want The Body Shop's cranberry body butter and others products which smell so yummy that they seem to be edible. at another corner, it would be my cute wardrobe where i have tons of clothes all fitting and chic in all colours,for all occasions. i'd have a separate closet for my gorgeous heels and shoes, oh and one for putting my clutches, handbags and backpacks..it would be a heavenly mini walk-in wardrobe or should i say,its a mini shopping mall with all my favouriteclothes! yeah right. enuff of my impossible dream,haha. im going to continue with my dreaded long overdue GP essay. the dateline was 15th and im behind this dateline for abt 10days already and i finished only half of the essay. i cant help it. the next paragraph im gg to write about the iraq war-and i am so confused over the articles i found regarding this-there seems to be manydifferent or shld i say ever-changing reasons why they are fighting/continuing this war. i think i am slow or sth but i find it hard to think why U.S interfered and whether saddam hussein did wrong and why the focus is at the middle east recently. the middle east is one confusing area where even rmb-ing the names of the countries poses a problem. i hate this topic. :x well, what im looking forward to is finishing this essay and moving on to more interesting aspects of my life. :) like learning different languages-japanese,korean,italian,french,spanish,malay and travelling to places i want to go,exploring..well,im suffering from delusion and the severe super unrealistic crazy dreamy disease. :) see u guys soon! tmr is another day to have fun! :D

2007-12-23T21:14:00.000-08:00

wow its been another week! today's christmas eve!i dun really celebrate it lah but christmas give me the impression of shopping madness cause everyone's out to buy gifts for everyone in the whole universe-family members,friends,collegues,blah blah..the thing is the madness* like the madness where the supermarkets/caterers rush out orders of turkeys,log cakes and hams..there's a whole series of christmas special set meals..and the crazy christmas sales at departmental stores..the impaitent crowds pushing and squeezing everywhere..at the train stations, in the malls,outside restaurants..never-ending..
this whole craziness just makes people go breathless and tired easily.
but anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS,FRIENDS! :D cause christmas is STILL the season to celebrate and spread joy and well wishes to everyone around u so just enjoy the day!

2007-12-23T21:10:00.000-08:00

the normal photos-which are only a few...lol

2007-12-23T20:43:00.000-08:00

here's some pics of the 3 of us having the photo-madness!

the meditating pic is so funny!!! and the one where i stick out my tongue thats so retarded!

2007-12-16T22:15:00.000-08:00

i am feeling so insecure nowadays..its like anytime, any small tiny thing happening or just a careless, unintentional sentence can break whatever i have now..not that i have alot to begin with..but its just that loose, empty feeling i hide within..
there seems to be some irritability within that i wish to vent on some people,but they wont let me(like durh), i wish i had a peaceful life.
i hope i meet up with my close friends ASAP to have some carefree fun and giggles! :D

2007-12-16T21:50:00.000-08:00

she's so cute right!

i took care of her for an afternoon and i realised taking care of a baby is certainly not easy. My arms were almost breaking(i cant really move my arms when i ate my dinner later,haha)after carrying her all day cause she want to see everything from a high angle and she wants someone to carry her around to explore. lol. if not she will cry, so i tried all ways to 'cheat' her into eating, playing some toys..but babies are so smart nowadays! luckily she's so cute! haha :D

P.S the orange bear beside her look extra hideous! :X

2007-12-13T02:00:00.000-08:00

well, i changed my blogskin to accomodate-chad michael murray! lol anyways im a lil sick of my previous one and i guess it must be quite annoying to squint at the tiny bright words so i change to a bigger font this time. :) nice me.
i just wasted another month of my life. ever since its hols i seem to be idling around sleeping,watching tv doing all the random stuff, adding to the nothingness of my life. i wish i had done sth purposeful. i shld have applied for a parttime job right at the start of my hols-and i wanna work at a vcd shop. haha for simple selfish reasons like being able to watch all my fave dramas while working 10-12 hrs a day. not to forget all the latest movies, oh gosh its pleasure at work! i've got tons of taiwanese and korean dramas and a whole load of movies to watch! haha its just a daydream..:)

i went to bedok library with LF on tues and its been ages since we both stepped in there..unlike the sec sch days where we 'chill' at bedok library-yeah,talking in a quiet corner of the lib,flipping through magazines-oh, and even studying with ade at the Galilee cafe in the lib!( i rmb-we were practising the damned amaths ! ) the reason is cause we study in schools that arent near bedok anymore..we went for brekkie then chatted for quite awhile before we head into the freezing library-and head for the chinese books :) i appreciate the fact that lifang read chinese books! haha i tried to not borrow books i've read before-i know i have that habit,i cant help it the books are so nice that they are worth re-reading!
the food section is damned attractive that both of us are glued to that section for hrs. mm..the dessert books are absolutely the best! all those cakes,pies,chocolately stuff is so yummy! if only we can bake them for ourselves..:( so far theres only doughnuts that require no baking..and tiramisu! but tiramisu needs some brandy or some difficult ingredient TSK. haha oh there's italian,spanish,and french cuisine books also! i should learn them lest i marry some spanish or frenchman..lol..

next week theres interact exco bbq-it sounds exciting! i cant wait to play bridge again! which reminds me of the game i played yesterday-connect 4! with the centre kids..its quite a mind game if u play with some challenging opponent? but im quite sick of that now cause i just played for 2 hrs straight yesterday. lol.but bridge is different! u get different cards and opponents everytime so it just keep getting interesting!

another exciting thing is STAR AWARDS! its the best thing that can happen on a sunday ok cause sundays are VERY BORING. i am rooting for ELVIN NG!!!!! :D

2007-11-07T03:59:00.000-08:00

haha i seriously din think this wuld end up nice..well, if u dun count the face HL was trying to show..i dunno what shes doing! HAHA that day was after searching for louis's present and hl's court shoes. i think she went crazy trying to search for a shoe not too kiddy,not too small, not too big, not too old, not too heavy, not too white...haha thats her..but we enjoyed the outing! we were quite tired after that and we head to bugis by bus! :) and we were quite broke!! no $$ so sad...

2007-11-07T03:39:00.000-08:00

some photos..during the outing..we ah anyhow only..lol

2007-11-07T02:13:00.000-08:00

oh gosh. pw is finally ooovvverrr!!! how happy can one get? but its something i've been doing for a year so i kinda feel lost after it has finally bee completely stashed away. ha.ha. but i was so nervous..like so that one lah! if im not so nervous i could have done better! oh, and even though sometimes i think that i cant really click with some of my classmates but pw was really great with them..:) thanks,guys! we even took2 photos to commerate it. lol. :) i nv knew we could be so united and well, funny..haha. but as i go on with my speech it got gradually better..less nervous..and it was like WHEW! my heart beat slowed down to a normal rate..and when we sat down on the chairs for q&a i felt nervous again!! aargh!! i m so...dong! ok then amanda's one was o.k la as in average answer..after that was kristal's. shes forever damned calm la can..shes one cool woman..and q&a she was great! i think she has the most potential for an A for pw..the others HA.HA. lets see..ok then linette's ok also, shes so funny cause i think shes nervous lah! the assessor asked, erm so how do u ensure the safety level for the obstacle race? then linette went on fine..good..haha then the assessor asked again, so what is the level of darkness? is there lights from the surroundings? then linette was like, er, it's not dark......but, its pitch dark..LOL u dun read too into the answer upon hearing it, the audience, including me who was so nervous laughed out loud! hahah no not being mean here haha but shes just so funny! well, she calmed my nerves for awhile, until it was all quiet again..then its my turn..haiyo..then the question though as normal as it seems, seemed quite hard to me to compare on the spot..haiyo..i nv tot of the question beforehand! 'so which of the2 events do u think is more appealing?' then im like oh! the 2nd event..blah blah blah..then i said er but the first event was also appealing..but its kind of confusing lah even i forgot what i answered! then they were like, ok can u tell me more about this dining in the dark event? while the lady smiled at me and seems interested and curious..thats such a good sign!!! i love her man..she smiled at me again..blame it on my nervousness..i knew the answer! but i gave her crap! ): groans* then she prompted me asking that what food do they actually eat..then i told them actually we tot of KFC..then they were like abit shocked and the audience was like KFC?! in that unbelievable tone. cause the event was dining in the dark...lol and they were supposed to use cutlery..erm..lol i was like..ugh. but i told them hey still can use spoons to eat their mashed potato and colesaw..lol..and they laughed again..HAIYO! then i wanted to say sth but my mind was like blank lah!!! -_- feel suicidal. forget it..my grpmates was like,eh why u contradict yourself and say so long aiyo..-_- ok..

2007-10-20T06:27:00.001-07:00

feel like watching THE ITALIAN..and watching LUST,CAUTION tmr! (its abt the olden shanghai times where the Tang Wei ( a shanghai girl )tries to seduce Tony Leung (some japanese) but falls in love with him instead during the war times or sth? so its somewhat a slight dash of historical stuff and a case of forbidden and dangerous love or sth. lol im nt too sure!i'll watch it and maybe i'll understand it better! haha)

2007-10-17T05:02:00.001-07:00

lifang and her pasta! :)
my 2 bestfriends-HL and LF :D
US 3! its so hard to take a 3some photo! :x
HL and her orangey dory fish :)
ME! and my chicken cordon bleu :) love the potatoes.
our dessert-bread and butter pudding :)
THIS IS THE BEST! MUD OOZE! YUM YUM! :-* the chocolate is darn good with ice cream! :D drools*

ME and LF ! YAY! :)

its after exams now..and i went out with ade right after m

y hist!! she forgot abt my exam and smsed me alot of times. haha i dun think the teacher heard-shes such a bimbo anyway-but a fierce one. -_- i dun like her. then me and ade went to eat and we chatted for some time..and laughing away..stuff like that. maybe we din have that intense happy excited feeling like YAYYYYY!!!! when we saw each other...but im definitely genuinely happy inside. so dun worry ok adeline! (: btw hols must go out more ok!!! we must go out more often!!! :D last saturday was also cool. !! :D went miss clarity cafe with hl lf we were quite thrilled actually. i was secretly excited also cause i went to surf the web and ppl responded that it was nice or not bad. only a few said it was normal. and 1 said the fish was uncooked but nevertheless the service was great. so i was secretly anticipating like crazy. LOL cuz i was thinking of the dessert the mud ooze!!! it was commented to be thick chocolate and esp yummy and delicious for chocolate lovers. so we went in search for that hidden cafe and i must say that with a map we can trust hl more. shes a very good geog student while i failed my geog map section-i always tikam. lol and true to what me and lf imagined-hl with map is definitely more reliable than her w/o the map. we found the place!!! it was bright pink in colour and a more casual place than we thought. everything was simple and sweet. (: even the menu was a simple booklet-no fanciful stuff. but it was cute. i couldnt really decide which to choose-the fish or the chicken or the pasta. i decided to go for the chicken cordon bleu! cause im tempted by its uniqueness and im kinda scared that garlic on/in the dory fish would be overwhelming. so i took chicken! (: lifang ate soft shell crab pasta-i duneven know the species of that pasta type. lol its like a combi of japanese and italian culture isnt it/. hl ate the dory fish. (: cause its chef recommendation also. Haha above are photos of our food and US! :D

2007-08-06T08:52:00.000-07:00

poetic..
作曲：郑楠填词：陈震/施人诚编曲：吕绍淳监制：王治平

黄金海岸的岸边我们肩并着肩 洁净的蓝天清

澈的水面吻成一条海平线

看你温柔的双眼弹着吉他的弦 歌词是诺言旋

律是依恋 唱出一首五月天

五月的天 刚诞生的夏天 我们之间 才完成的爱

恋紧握的手里面有好多明天

五月的天 梦开始要鲜艳 前方蜿蜒一长串的心愿

我们一天一天慢慢实现

大雨冲走了昨天 青春乌云几片彩虹的旁边有星

星几点迫不及待在眨眼

海风味道变香甜沙滩镶满亮片 你哼着永远我

和着不变 合唱一首五月天

海浪拼命欢呼跳跃 一遍又一遍鼓励我们看谁

先吻谁的脸为这五月之恋

再添一个逗点再多的五月天怕也不够我们沉醉

海燕身边来回盘旋扮演着领队彷佛听见幸福在

前面不远

为这五月之恋再添一点信念往后的五月天和你

走到比永远还远

bold orange words cool right, i mean the lyrics. they dui4 zhang4 well. lol? qing2 rong yu2 jin3 sia..lol cool! love this song and lyrics and mv..worthwhile man lol

2007-06-13T03:38:00.000-07:00

i feel like i haven blog for long.lol.well,just to update..hmm recently(ok maybe not so recent an ymore) i went for my interact camp(DONT LOOK DOWN ON THIS CCA!!!) and it was so much fun although i appreciate their efforts to make the night walk scary,it was rly scary to me maybe not to some other brave souls who claim to be brave? anyway i KNOW its all in the mind but its scary when they talk abt ghost stories for hours and then let me go for the night walk and expect my mind not to wander? LOL. i became yi shen yi gui cuz my partner was scared also lol.we walked up to the foyer(that FREAKY foyer with figuruies of cats and mouse! -_-my sch is weird anyway) then my friend was like, OMG!DID U SEE A FIGURE? then i looked carefully SHIT THE FIGURE SEEMS LIKE THE ONE XXX IS TALKING ABT! OMG SHE GLOWS!!! SHE HAS A GREEN LIGHT! OMG OMG! and we ran back to the previous station. haahha we had a ghd laugh the next morning. and i din understand why my grp lost amazing race.we ran like mad and did the challenge fast.tsk.we got third.BUT anyway i enjoyed the camp..the second night i slept at ard 4 am after we played bridge daidee and lots of weird games newly invented and silly games like heart attack and hai tai or whatsoever.lol and watched joash did all the forfeits--pole dancing with the pillar..ballet dancing with in-the-air splits..do an action and make the ppl at the next table laugh..etc...hes always doing the forfeits..tsk tsk.but its so fun.! lols. and my grp leaders were super funny!!!omg every sentence they say i will burst out laughing and they frown at me and say eh eh i still want to shed this image i dunno why whatever i say ppl will laugh..how?i want to be shu nu one leh...and they turn to ea other and sigh..haha.so funny..lol..and oh YA! OUR PERFORMANCE at campfire night!!! omg.we were the best can.lol we hardly win anything..so must show off abit..haha.we put up an act showing the whatever and anything advertisement!!!! haha..and rmb all those stories i toldu all?,friends??? MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH of cuz i had a great time.... :) :) :) :D :D :D :D so she bu de....BUT ITS FUN!!! muahahah
and oh ya this tues i went for interact interview! it is SO SCARY CAN. so shitty la all the comm members thr the teacher was thr i dunno they just sat ard like a semicircle surrounding me. -_- tsk so nervous!!!! the questions were abit hard,i guess.but seriously i wasnt rly THAT freaked out cuz i know most of them and usually they were the laughing joking kindso i kinda know being so strict and stern were so FAKE! hahhaahhah but the sudden change esp a few becoming so fierce and strict did scared me...tsk..but later in the middle they ask me a question like, abt the old folks home like how wuld u make the visit more intersting and make ur fellow interactors find it interesting?(not exact words but near.) then i cant think of anything i tot of some folks who werent sporty some who are wheelchair bound and some who were uneducated i am like..what games can they play..then i tot of the last time we went for visit and we played bingo with them so i suggested bingo and they were expecting more ideas,esp my own so i was like,SHIT!!! what else what else...and all the games went thru my mind..i suddenly tot of wacko! and im like NOOOOO they cant play wacko shit what else..then i tot of daidee..grr..bridge? monopoly? hai dai??? AAAHHH al they cannot play..then i suddenly tot of eh? i just blurted out 'ZHONG JI MI MA!' then everybdy ok most of thm stifled a giggle. LOL la..then they asked me abt the forfeits and stuff..ughhh...i REALLY REALLY REALLY HOPE that i rly can be the director of comm service!!!!!! its not abt the top 3 achievements shit ok its rly what i want to do..seriously i want MORE home visits and MORE,BIGGER projects interact club can do and not let those ignorant ppl think interact is just a slack club which does nth...INTERACT IS NOT! u dongs! even though we are not that sporty we do meaningful stuff..we are constantly on the movc to do visits embark on projects to help ppl and return back to the society and sometimes this can help me a little in my future ambition of becoming a social worker.and although u see our meetings short? thats cuz we are efficient and fast workers and we spend the time making stuff for old folks? we do it at home! we do it using our own free time..we plan and brainstorm for ideas at home first then come together and tell others abt our ideas! we are fast! and we do lots of stuff! FACE IT! ok..all out now..i hate it when ppl frown when i say i am from interact. i used to feel like them also but after so many projects(successful ones at that) im rly glad for the opportunities and interact i feel have more worth than a sports cca or a stupid ch**r at that.hmph! i rly hate my sch's ch**r seriously.they are so overrated la! they are NOT GOOD trust me. yet they seem so full of themselves. TSK* -_- whatever,lesbianic control freaks!
whatever. INTERACT ROCKS!!!!

2007-05-27T06:30:00.000-07:00

oh gosh.today is a v tiring day,but im quite satisfied though.a little happy, a little disappointed. and i am quite happy LOUIS CHUA msged me.HAHAH!!! omg i miss all my friends man.haha and i feel like i haven seen ADELINE for ages!

2007-05-19T20:07:00.001-07:00

HEY people!!! yay. there's been quite alot of changes to my mindset and mood these days. and i must say most of them are actually positive stuff! hohoho!! lol. yesterday me,lifang, hiangling, angel went out to suntec and shop like mad, we ate a okok but simple lunch together at Siam Kitchen, and a nicer dinner at mos burger. (: so cool. i love my normal besties man!!!! i wonder if they still regard me as their bestie? i know they still regard me as their friend,no doubt (i think i nv do anything to them right?) hah but i dunno whether its a two-way friendship u know? its kind of inevitable, like u may kind of shu yuan,once u are in diff schools, its possible for the friendsip to maintain its also possible for it to become not-so-good. i dun blame them actually, but i hope they still regard me as their bestie forever!!! (: lol. we went to topshop and tried all the stuff thr like mad and i love the sale haha.but those items which are not on sale are even nicer, only we cant afford them..hoho.but we still tried it and we had so much fun in the changing rooms, deciding whether to buy this to buy that, and we whiz in and out of ea.other's changing rms to see whether the friend's clothing fits.we became slightly noisy i think and our 'network' became abit obvious and the staff there had to politely shoo us out.LOL. (: nevertheless it was fun, and i m glad for some great company and people with great taste to shop! (: and after that we found out that there's alot of sales gg on, and we found alot of stuff we like actually..but its too expensive. :x WE ADORE THE COLOURS WE SAW uesterday unlike the dull colours we saw in dec last yr,i can totally sense the summer's here!!!! i think its soon gg to be over, maybe in a mth? haha the colours were super cheery!!! (: (: (: i love it!!! i think i better start saving up. hoho. then we were on a mission to find angel's court shoes and we failed in the end i think 'cause i thinnk we got distracted by all the sales, hahh. we had so much laughter also, and we made a small thing for angel-hope she likes it and i hope i had made a little effort in making my friend happier. (: (: and last but not least, to end this post off, i would like to say sth to my friends,hoho! HEY HL,LF,ANGEL,ADE...i would like to say I HAVE ALWAYS LOVE U ALL AS MY FRIENDS!!!! i know it sounds cheesy but thats how i feel the entire week even when u all had no time to meet me due to sch commitments(hah some improvement in my english.. i know hl will go -_-) haha! and U ALL ALWAYS BROUGHT LAUGHTER TO MY LIFE, LETS HOPE WE CONT TO BE BFFs!!!! (btw bff stands for best-friends-forever!) hoho!! (: (: (:

2007-04-25T04:31:00.000-07:00

i just drank tomato soup prepared by my mom.its super nice and i realised how much i love tomato soup.haha.i loved it since i was young but nobdy likes it so my mom hardly cooks it and recently i mentioned hey i miss ur tomato soup then my mom was like haha i forgot how to cook le.-_- haha lol right.so i told her abt the ingredients i rmb-ed and she cooked it for me today! so i got a surprise when i opened the lid of the pot and ta-dah! TOMATO SOUP!!! i was like so happy that i drank the whole pot.ha!

i done my GP presentation!!! even though it wasnt my best attempt cuz the stupid teacher just told us to do it even though we arent prepeared and internet connection cant work.so we just presented impromptu.whatever la he.lol then we just present and WHEW,its over.yay! :D

but theres still history presentation.ugh.shit.haii.thats horrible cuz i dunno what topic means anyway.
-_-

YAY its seriously raining heavily now!!!! whoo!!! haha. i love rains at nights or actually anytime of the time of the day,esp when i am on a bus..thru a long bus journey..thats the best man..immersed in that sort of mood..whoo.anyway,rains are mostly good except when its pe.pe indoors is just so sucky ok.all sorts of stupid stuff just pop out,for us to do..lol.i still rmb-ed.if we are playing soccer,i can tell u rain is damned bad..but actually i dunmind playing in the rain,esp in the field..the grass is perfect.i love the grass actually.u know what.HAHA.i thought of my eye candy and i playing soccer together(my eye candy is in the soccer team) then after that we can just lie on the grass and enjoy the moments together...wow...haha ultimate enjoyment. (: lol ok now its seriously pouring omg i love it i love it i love it!!! i love heavy rains.whoo..i pray that it cont raining and dun stop till tmr,when i wake up..its heaven.. (:

2007-04-16T05:14:00.000-07:00

i want to FIGHT FOR WOMEN'S RIGHTS!!!!!
women all over the world are usually the victim under the evil hands of the men..being forced to be a slave to them..being SEXUALLY ABUSED..thats so yucks..men dont respect women at all..they are getting more and more violent and Narcissi and they think they OWN women and they think they are IN CHARGE and we must ONLY listen to them?! PLEASE.when men succeed in their careers we women are happy for u..when we women succeed in our careers u get all pissed and frustrated and even sabotage our careers and life..u get all sarcastic and says"u think u are really that good?!" YEAH WE ARE THAT GOOD! when men have an affair..they are like,yeah so what? when women have an affair the men will fly in a rage and slap us get revenge even resort to violence on us women..
YEAH,SO U THINK U MEN WITH THE SO-CALLED strength can fight us right..u got the strength so u can hit us right..yeah? then wheres ur strength when it comes to the situation where the women u had an affair with gets pregnant? U MEN says: "ABORT THE CHILD" u know i watch ashow and this girl say this boyfren even told her" this is just an excuse for u women to get money from me." LIKE WTH!! u did it and u pretty well admit and accept responsibility.if u had all those physical strength to hit us women,its still no use IF U MEN ARE A WIMP IN THE INSIDE. -_- like,whatever.
i hope these guys get their retribution..esp those who use violence and SHRINK RESPONSIBLITY...and responsibilities means all sorts of responsibilities,DONG!
so.I HAD TO STAND UP AGAINST ALL THESE.i want to FIGHT FOR THE WOMEN'S RIGHTS!!! and girls,know ur self-worth.if ur bf behaves like a retarded jerk and IS a retarded jerk.DUMP HIM.yay! women rocks.behave like an intelligent women and nv fall prey to idiotic AND retarded men/jerks.
YAY.

2007-04-15T01:36:00.000-07:00

ONLY IDIOTS LIKE PROJECT WORK!!!!!! ugh!

2007-04-15T01:20:00.000-07:00

its like,wth.my weekend kinda sucks.because of my PIwhich theteacher says,must hand up,latest by tmr.and today is sunday.PI sucks.P/W sucks.i dunno how anyone can like it.it seems like an unimportant and slack subject isnt it? but it isnt.its drafts after drafts and you keep gg wrong and wrong and u nv get it right.and u spent hours in front of the computer and ur teacher commented on ur work using one word:unsatisfactory.and u have to start a new draft allover again.and its using up and weekends and my other h/w time.like WTH!!! and the teachers that taught our class p/w arent really helpful,u see.one of them werent even kind i tell u,she is so biased that the girls hated her for it.oh man,at least some teachers at SOME OTHER COLLEGE tells the students and guides the students.ours dont.AAHHH...sucks sia.GRRR...and im rushin my PI like siao!!!!research research research..i think now the teachers are testin us whether we know how to go to the net or what..they DONT EVEN MARK OUR STUFF.they just like to give h/w and research projects.AS IF THE REAL PROJECT ISNT BOTHERIN ME ENUFF.-_- -_- -_- can we have a one week break-totally no h/w and stuff? or should we just abolish that stupid p/w? I WONDER WHICH IDIOT SUGGESTED PROJECT WORK!!!!!!!!!! AAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

2007-04-11T07:06:00.000-07:00

its an interesting yet challenging sort of thing.guess i used to stand out a little due to some sort of weird reason,but no more now cuz other ppl had the same reason also.i feel alittle suffocated and had the feeling of being pushed down(bi3 xia4 qu4)..i dunno.i guess i am just so simple and boring..once i lost tht stupid reason..i dunno whether he thinks so? seen his face.his reaction..still too early to gauge..but will know it soon.then i know.i shld have known.now i even dread the thing i love because i am too afraid to see and know what i already know but werent convinced.oh,shit man. :(

2007-04-11T05:24:00.000-07:00

well.i dont understand.i would just like to call everybody to shut up if they dun mind.ok,not everybody,maybe just the ppl in my sch.i dunno.ppl just keep talking and talking and talking about the same stuff over and over and over again.u know,i just told them gently to stop sayin the same thing over and over again and they pretend to be hurt and give me that damned hurt face and the pity-me look. -_- like wth,and i just left it since i already said my part.and they will start their whining and SUPER lame AND STUPID jokes its not just lame ok lame jokes is okkay i know,i dunmind.but its stupid and lame,everyday.i cant take it.and i have to pretend to smile and give the yup,im listenin face cuz if not the whining starts the face starts ya i will die.and i cant get away with this stupid person cuz this freaking person hangs out with my friends and in our class we hang out in one big gang,and when one person speaks usually everybdy listens.i dunno how to say it la.anyway,ya and there is one who keeps whining saying dunwant go sch and want skip la,pon la...whatever then come to jc for what?! pon pon pon.every lesson also pon.the school's feng qi jiu shi zhe yang..everybdy pons,and to think we are so concerned and jie yi on being labelled as a slack school.if u dunwan to be labelled as that then get to work la and prove them wrong! its not the school's fault ok,and to the teachers and principal,its not the fault of other schools,its us.our students.c'mon,stop it man! if u want to be slack then be slack,if u want quality pls have quality.change some of our teachers,students buck up,we will improve if we put in the effort not go around doing stupid things and having extra lessons when the students pon the real curriculum lessons.haiya whatever la.ok then there's this person who turns to me and say sian tired la to me for abt 10 times per period.she's nice la but its just so..as in i have my energy and enthusiasm for the lessons actually.but she kept repeating and repeating that until i became convinced that i am also sian and tired.i cant do my homework too much also because i will be ostracised if i do that,u know? ppl are too slack. "eh we dun do la tmr pass up set ah.nobdy supposed to do anything !" haii..i dunno whats wrong with me...pissed and irritated.just shut up.just shut up.and theres this good fren of mine.u know they are all nice ppl but..i dunno.just irritating? her high-pitched voice irks me and this person just talks abt the same thing over and over again and if i dun listen she say i dao her and she is so..aargh! i say go here she say nonono dun!!! then i am like ok go there then shes like ok.then once i start walkin she say she say eh dunwan leh walk the original route.AARGH.then she s like keep repeating and repeatin.i dunn la.how to say.WTH,its like even if these ppl arent ard my mind will go on a replay mode also cuz they kept repeating.wth wth wth wth wth.its now the soccer season for schools and i seriously miss the times we had inter clas soccer competitions in my sec sch and i get to go to soccer matches with my frens and support our frens or simply just watch the match and enjoy it.i love it man.but now...i think i have to travel to another school change my uniform and find my frens b4 i can watch the match.so sad la.and today a girl irritated the helll out of me.her laughter is like,so sickening and loud.get out,man.wth.why.wth.

2007-04-02T06:08:00.000-07:00

haha.this is impossible."impossible is nth".but this is another kind of impossiblities.and i dun think i want it to become possible either.HAHA.i just want it to become alittle more..(i dunno what?) haha.
anyway,just wanted to say nowadays I AM BEGINNING TO LOVE ECONS.
anyway,econs rocks.SOCCER rocks.

2007-03-23T01:12:00.000-07:00

okay.haha.after i mentioned that guy was okay,he came up almost irritaing me again.lol.so i cant actually say ppl's nice,the next day they will become bad to me,and when i say they are bad they dun become nice.like my school.haha.well,yesterday he was irritaing me,but i din get irritated,too immune to his stuff already.-_- ha.

sweet.someone said sweet.and i tot that(haha)if i am a guy,hmm,maybe i wuld like someone whos gentle,sweet,quiet,a lil'sporty(just a little),and intelligent.wow.my girl man.haha.sounds so wrong.i still like guys.but i think this kind of girls are hard to find? so far din really see anyone like that.maybe i havent been seeing girls,thats why.
ok anyway,thats just something i have been thinkin on the bus just now.haha.

intelligent.

2007-03-21T08:41:00.001-07:00

history is difficult..my history class is undescribable..lets just say i am seriously ostracized. ouch.

2007-03-21T08:35:00.000-07:00

hey.rmb the post on feb28th? ha. after so many things have happened,i dun think u can count him as irritating and annoying and bad or what,oh maybe hes still irritating but alot lesser and i certainly can tolerate more of him cuz i just realise that there are ALOT more ppl who is more disgusting than him.so after seeing so many more unnice ppl,i realise he is nice in his own way,and hey,i like his attitude.hah.maybe thats cuz i din see him for solong already,maybe once he starts irritating me and irking me and whatsoever maybe i will start to find him irritating again/? haha.anyway,just trying to say my life just got worse.haha.

2007-03-19T03:03:00.000-07:00

there is only one word that can be used to describe my day.SUCKS.thats a strong word isnt it? well,cuz my emotions are THAT strong.to all my good old pals,i am telling u all this is waaayy WORSE than first three mths.at lest first three mths i had a nice civics tutor(i am serious) and a really nice and smart and good chem tutor,my econs tutor was cool also..only the maths tutor kinda suck in her own way(shes stupid la,ignore her)so even if at first the classmates werent that close the tutors sort of helped to alleviate the situation or what.then i found someone who has the same combi as me so we hung out like good pals which is GOOD la and we found another 2 REALLy nice ppl and we had a gang,so even if we 4 werent very close to the class(it wasnt delibrate but i dunno why) it was good,we 4 went for recess we 4 hung out,me and the same combi girl had the same cca,we 4 had VERY similar views toward almost everything,we got along so well...and then they separated us totally.MY SAME combi partner WENT TO NYJC ( LIKE WTHE!) and i stupidly tot arts was my dream stream or what..histor just got even stresser and human geog teacher sucks..and OH YA the worst thing is the civics tutor(hes a stupid asshole shit ass or any vulgarities u can hurl at him pls do me a favour)hes stupid and gay and disgusting! i din noe how disgusting teachers get until i came to this sch ok.seriously.so my life just got worse.

whats this,seriously.another tough one to toughen me up for life? i hate this ok i dun understand how some ppl get all the luck and others just went deep down in some stupid shit ok.i talked to everybdy already,nth seems to help,maybe what i need is a new life,oh man talk abt rebirth! seriously then i will know what to change.(work hard like hell for o levels i will start working frm sec3 man,seriously i am gg to get single pointers and get into some decent junior college and not some stupid jealous sch which recruits stupider MALE teachers.and now i think absoultely nth helps(even the canteen food fails me at this time)and btw my classmates already had a great clique and arts is so not me now..maybe its time for me to embrace back chem and physics and maybe bio also and stop this nonsense i dun even know what i can do in uni and i definitely dunwan hang out with arts ppl again.(most of them are horribly unnice.) ok the end. -_-

2007-03-10T05:39:00.000-08:00

Loathe to love
Life has a funny way of surprising you.For example,i have friends who used to say,"I hate short chinese men!" As life would have it,they ended up marrying them.Over the years,I've learned never to say " I hate.."bcause the day always comes when i have to eat my words and confess my delayed love and admiration.
this was what an editor said in a women's mag last year.i happened to read it,and i found it true to my case nowadays.

for me,someone actually told me that everything happens for a reason.As in yup,sometimes,life arent what u imagined and planned to be,but it happens so u become who u are today and u have what u have today.imagine if u had taken the previous route u planned,certainly,life would have been alot of different from today.i guess thats what he meant.

i find it hard to think that way cuz i think i kinda resents the way my life has been ruined,to me,now.actually,i've been thinking abt whats wrong.actually,whats wrong? why did i end up in a college i din like so much and feel that everything is wrong for me in there? is it because of my o levels results? i am not so sure that results were the main cause? i dunno.its like,yeah my maths were B3s,but i had done my best abt it,and i tot my e maths was gg to be an A,but apparently not and i dunno whats wrong,cuz i checked the paper 3 times already,and during the exam i tot i had it all covered.and my science had been my weakest all along,i have been failing and failing with F9s under my name and mid-yr was my wake-up call for my sciences.i had to buck up and at least keep one of my sci afloat cuz i needed it.so i tried to pull up both and felt that chemistry was like,whoa,cuz i had a weak foundation,i had trouble figuring out complicated equations and i din quite like those titrations and guess -what -color type of questions also,oxidation and reduction obviously din work,i had trouble with electrolysis(oh man,i can tell u i hate that topic!) so i decided to focus on physics.and yup i did pulled it up quite alot and i actively seeked help frm my fellow peers and did lots of practice for physics,yes,i am happy with my physics results,but chem wasnt that gd,but i used only physics for L1R5 whats.okay,so my geog and combined humantites were Bs also.like nth good to count also what,all B3s like that just times 4 lah.combined humanties caught me off guard cuz i did studied but all the wrong topics.lol maybe thats where i gone wrong? but i did my best as in i wrote as much as i could and did my best in source based.lol.but i din expect my english and hcl to be ok,i tot i was g to have a C.lol.seriously,it hadnt been good all these yrs.but im grateful.yup.so it wasnt really my O's i suppose.like,u got 9 distinctions but all A2s then L1R5 is 12 pts,who to blame? 9 distinctions is good ok.but 12 pts isnt,apparently,seeing that u cant even get into Tjc.and if u havent any bonus pts to minus,u cant even make it to Mjc.lol.i dunno.nowadays 12 pts isnt anything anymore.in fact maybe 12 pts can only get u into tpjc? so whats wrong! aargh!too many ppl getting smarter nowadays?

well,thats kind of wu nai to me,being unable to go mjc,like if i would to do it one more time,i dunno what to change!

well,no use seeing whats wrong here,what i wanted to say is,i already need to accept tpjc whether i loathe it or love it,i dun think i will grow to like it,considering that i dun have friends thr,i dun have a proper cca there and i know the food's awful there,and i am not sure whether i can do it in arts,even though i like the subjects,the ppl,are totally dif frm sci.(and i just realise i am a half sci half arts person and thats TOTALLY confusing for my future) ok,no use whining ard,i just have to learn how to face it,right? well,i shall try....

maybe next time i wuld love tpjc? ahem..i am not so sure abt that...but maybe as the years passed,i have to eat back my words again..2007 has been a year when i eat back alot of my words...hmm..what do u all think?

2007-03-07T08:26:00.000-08:00

lol.i am back in tpjc(i hope is temporary)or else i have to face that person for 2 more yrs.he can happily spent his time torturing me.
omg.i am gg to lose my identity.i am gg to be a tpjcian,that just sucks k.meaning i am under anytime,anywhere attack.pls let me leave the place sia.its like he AND i tot that i will go to mjc so i am kinda sad and she bu de on the last day of sch,he WAS abit sad that day too,but its disgusting that once he saw me in sch today,hes like so de yi for what! sian.i can see he knows i am here for good.ugh.i hope my appeal is successful so that i can give him an awful shock and let me get into a college wth ALL my frens ba.....hopefully....

2007-02-28T00:55:00.000-08:00

its stupid.whats wrong with me?
I do not like him.
1.he's irritating
2.he's annoying
3.he rolls his eyes too often at the tiniest matters
4.he's fierce for nothing
5.he's weird
6.he's lousy
7.he's still irritating AND annoying
8.he thinks he's smart
9.he boasts too much
oh,whatever.
i cant help it.OH I DUNNO.

2007-02-19T06:48:00.000-08:00

http://youtube.com/watch?v=hucRGC-fcQ0
watch this! for pictures of that cute small guy who will grow up to be someone gorgeous and pictures of those 5 guys who are disgusting.

2007-02-19T06:21:00.000-08:00

hahaha.of course,not forgetting my first day of the new year.hmm,i was pretty happy.i dunno its like all the happiness had gone up to my throat.whoa.HA.anyway,theres that 1 lovely guy,guess who? haha...i think he still looks muscular,handsome,and i think hes pretty easygoing.wow.haha i cant help but feel damned happy.but i know its quite impossible,haha,not cuz of the presentrelationship btwn two of us,but i think i dun know what to do if i am really with him!i think i can only stare and stare and will be happy enough and this isnt really a normal relationship right? LOL.so weird,so i think its pretty impossible.i think he looks good in everything.and he listens u know.. when ppl talks,he listens intently.he dun cut in rudely.i think he's nice too.i bet he's heard all abt my story abt the teachers in my sch.haha.anyway,the main pt is he's damned nice and good-looking,and we sat facetoface on the vehicle!!!yay yay yay.i am so happy!!!! :D :D :D :D :D yay.HE ROCKS!!!!

2007-02-19T05:43:00.000-08:00

hey hey its me again!! back with a lighter mood.HAHA.anyway,today was good.i cant say its awesome but its good.haha.wow.today i watched'wo de chu lian xiao qing ren'and it was awesome.the small boy was SO cute and the small girl was cute.when i was watchin the movie,i was hoping that that small guy will grow up quickly-er so that we can be together.HA.he's SO cute.i bet he will be a gorgeous guy when he grows up.i think hes nice,but cuz of those stupid guys that he befriended or whatsoever lah.i hate those guys.LOUSY soccer players still act big.bleah.i think this movie was mainly awesome cuz of that small cute guy,otherwise i was hoping that the guy grew up to be a handsome,charming gentlemen,not like the guy who acted in the movie.i think the part when he grew up to be a man,they found the wrong actor.yucks! ok.lol and i was hoping that small guy grew up and be together with noi-na,not such a anti-climax ending.still,the most annoying part is the actor who acted as the grown-up version of that small cute guy.spoil everything.

HAHA.if only i have my childhood sweetheart!!! HAHAHA. :D :D :D

2007-02-15T03:09:00.000-08:00

so sian.everyone changed.
oh sian.everyone and everything now just plainly sucks.
the end.
gosh,now meeting friends is like,meet friends lor.i dun even feel the happiness.we are just doing things for the sake of doing it.
i feel like i am being laughed at every minute by everyone.
THIS IS BAD,THIS IS HORRIBLE,i just wanna sleep.

2007-01-25T05:03:00.000-08:00

ugh.this is sickening.really sickening.i dont know how i shall put it but its just sickening.werent really feeling eager or interested to talk today,dunno,just found it tiring to talk,esp when the gang suddenly expands.everyone wants to talk,well,so i just wanted to listen,thats all.
really.sometimes i find it so tired to talk nowadays,i think and feel that some ppl are just not worth me opening my mouth.and i just wanna close my eyes.
school hasnt been really great AGAIN.i dunno,the rain comes at the wrong times,the chem and maths tutorials make me sick.(i realise i am a truly arts person)maths is actually ok for me but the tutor makes me sick.so i dunno.suddenly i like physics ALOT.mr M mr M mr M.kinda miss him man.ha.i dunno whether to regret NOT taking physics.hmmmm.not very sure,in fact,very confused abt my future plans.what shall i study,where shall i study,what shld i become/do??
i am so sick of living under the scrutiny of so many weird ppl,sick of hearing other ppl's opinions,sick of listening to weird ppl think big and act big but is actually nth to me,sick of having to go against everything i am and everything that i want to do.i am sick of eating stuff i dunlike and crave crazily for stuff that i like,i am sick of waiting for ppl who makes me late,i am sick of eating of the whole school,i am sick of having to give in to ppl,i am sick of making eye contact,i am sick of being isolated,i am sick of being so poor,i am sick of the fact that i am seriously left out,i am sick of the fact that i am always tired,i am sick that now i must take weird buses to school and frm school,i am sick of the lack of music in my life,i am sick of not talking and speaking out what i want,i am sick of everybdy using the no-time excuse to brush off me,i am sick of ppl who cough but duncover their damned mouth,i am sick of everything? i dunno.i just feel that sometimes i just wanna sleep all day and get an mc that allows me to runaway frm school and the stress of all kinds it bring along while being able to learn what i want.OKOK,i am UNREALISTIC,i am RANTING for no reason,i am a stupid FREAK,WHATEVER,this is MY blog,so SHUTUP.
oh man,suddenly i feel so alone,so weak,so annoyed,at everything,whats wrong with me,what?!!
wheres my friends when i needed them the most?

2007-01-14T04:05:00.000-08:00

well,this new year have been crap.i dunno,maybe crap is too strong a word to use but i dunno,i haven been feeling seriously honestly happy since school started.i have been feelin lost and seriously disappointed in ppl.i am not sure,but i have tried my best--being friendly and nice and all.suddenly everything i see is gigantic and everything feels damned heavy and i totally dread gg to the audi or lecture theatres or canteen its like seeing everybdy with friends and somehow it reflected that i din have any.well,therefore even if the present sch had been ok except the issue of friends n classmates,i have that strong urge of gg to another sch. :( this is so sickening.
i so very miss temasek.oh my god,it is like heaven there.i feel happy and sad just thinking abt it.gosh,even the wickedest teachers seemed nice,even the school rules seemed so..ok already.lol and i miss being so familiar with the school building and being able to talk to most teachers as if they are our friends.i miss my classmates,i miss my friends...oh,yes i miss lin lao shi alot sia,and chinese lessons,i miss hiangling,lifang,adeline..louis chua,yongwei,J.E.X,kaiwu,kuanwei,dz,samuel and so on..wth.i miss everybdy.ok.
its those grad night photos i flipped thru and see that triggered those emotions.lol.safirah!angel! (: my gosh i am gg to send them to hl,lf,ade and louis chua,man.lol.
tmr theres stupid chem prac.i hate practicals ok.ugh.its the last period and ends damned late.i am now sure i do not want to be involved in anyway with H2 chem.yes yes i will have feelings of fear and disgust once i see complicated equations and never-ending ions or moles or what..and i cant stand doing experiments!!! okok.i am weird

2006-12-25T23:04:00.000-08:00

yeah YEAH yeah yeaaahh! the zoo trip was GREAT.and later we are heading to chalet and bbq!however today is such a rainy day that my toes felt the cold even though i am indoors.after this month of rains and non-stop never ending thunderstorms,i realise that rain may not be good.rain makes outing difficult,make us damned cold and sticky,cuz after a heavy rain,the weather is still quite humid? not sure.my geography has nv been good and i never study weather and climate for my prelims and o levels.ha.its such a huge lump of info and knowledge yet i nv managed to score anything or what.anyway.rain makes us cold=more sweaters,jackets,long-sleeves,layering.jeans.i think a comfortable jeans will make u comfortable but an uncomfortable jeans will make it even worse from miniskirts or what--worrying abt butt cracks?zips?too low,too inconvenient, too high-waisted,abit ugly?aiya sian jeans also quite hard to go toilet and so long,when u need to try on bottoms in the changing rm,its rather inconvenient too.hmm.sian.
yay,later's chalet.yeah man.2e2 chalet though i am already sec4.haha.sometimes it's rather exciting,sometimes its not so exciting sometimes it feels fun,with everyone having fun obviously.i am not sure abt this one though,have a weird and tired feeling,though feels happy.
left out?
sometimes she just doesnt feel it,she thinks she's sensitive and all.but i dont think so,she makes me tired,and she wants to be popular.lol.sian.
ok whatever.

2006-12-21T19:50:00.000-08:00

ok this holiday is mostly spent on shopping and idling away.why din i do anything abt it?i guess i am kinda panaroid or what,like once i made it to a new jc ALONE and all my frens in another jc then its kinda hard to keep in contact and do such stuff again.its not that i have no confidence in our friendship or what its just that some things are just beyond our control.like orientation,camps,stuff like staying back after school,school events,blah blah bla,once u are in a totally different school its kinda hard to meet up and be like friends as we are IN THE PAST,like ur frens are different frm mine my classmates are diff frm u my subjects are diff frm u our school expectations,pressure is DIFFERENT.ok even if we try to meet up occasionally,sometimes we may feel tired frm our day frm sch and we really dun have much energy to talk or listen to the friend talk,however if we are in the same school,its like,communication need not be so tiring and thus will be more enjoyable.GET IT? -_-"
now i dont even know how to go to the school,even.like,i dunno what stop to alight and walk into the school,and there's not even a single soul willing to lead me.i think i shld suffer frm a stupid pri sch then a torturous sec sch so that i will be more optimistic abt my junior colleges.and i cant even find stuff to match my uniform.its like,i will look greenn all over,like a tree as lifang suggested,and adeline suggesting luckily i dun have brown on me or i will look more like a tree with the trunk.okaaay.its like i bought a green sling bag and i want a green jacket and i am wearing green uni,so what does that make me?haiya whatever lah,if i really look like a tree by then,i will wear something black ok?
anyway,my point is school uniforms shld be made like the uniform frm temasek secondary,white and navy blue and then the students can express their creativity thru the jackets the shoes the bags and see how they mix and match and be creative.why stick to white black or dark blue?we are youths,and we are supposed to have a vibrant schoollife so we are supposed to wear bright colors like red,orange,yellow,pink,green,purple and more...maybe they can just allow red and green and light blue that will certainly make our lives easier.
if i am the principal,i think i will encourage that.ha.ha.ha.
anyway!!! I'm gg to the zoo tmr!!!! yay yay-e yay yay! haha. i am gg to the zoo with a bunch of close frens whom i love alot.yay.haha.and next week 26th is officially chalet day.and next week is christmas!!! yay.if only we dun have to go to school so soon.its like time not enuff to use.yay zoo is exciting!! i want new flip flops and a cap!! haha but now too late to buy cuz tmr we will go to the zoo,early in the morning...need to bring my big,fat,ugly camera and batteries,everytime i use it is bound to be low batt.yay,photos of all my frens!in wacky poses in the ZOO.with the pumas,tigers,leopards,elephants,ponies,chimpanzees,gorillas,giraffes,zebras,polar bears,bears,yay.cool.by the way,for those interested in the zoo,the website is www.zoo.com.sg haha.visit it,ok? haha.excited!

2006-11-29T07:54:00.000-08:00

And then there was this silence.This really weird silence.We stared at each other as though we were seeing each other for the very first time.It was like the world stopped turning just for us.An odd magical silence.
Then he kissed me.Toby kissed me.And as our lips pulled apart my eyelids opened slowly to see hi staring at me as though he was going to say something.and in true Toby form he said,"I bet there was pepperoni in your dinner."
How embarrassing.
Immediately my hands flew to my teeth,remembering how heused to tease me about the food stuck in my braces .But he grabbed my hands and pulled them gently away from my mouth and said ,"No,this time I could taste it."

an excerpt from the book "where rainbows end" i like toby.
he's cute in the sense that he's sensitive and cute at the same time.i like alex too.he's nice and he had a funny and nice way of understanding the people around him ..katie is so cute.and rosie dunne is UNIQUE.
this book is heartwarming and to me,and according to Cosmopolitan,it proves that true love never dies...

2006-11-29T07:22:00.000-08:00

ok today is sort of a weird day.it was meet-the-people-day.ok lets see.aisyah manab in the library wearing such gorgeous shades that i had to strongly resist myself from drooling over the shades.and squid and lexter working in parkway even though i din noe them but i am not retarded i still know their names.it was kinda weird cuz din really expect them to be there.AND, I REALLY WAS MOMENTARILY SURPRISED..ok.hmm.and then it was maybellyn and then we went to fish&co and i saw my pri-sch fren as one of the people working there..hmm.ok
whatever.i am temporarily shocked.I know i know i am easily shocked.LOL the funniest thing is the time at yoshinoya and yongwei sat opp me and lifang was beside me..and a grainof rice suddenly flew out of his beef bowl and i jumped back.LOL.yongwei was like -.-"(x3times) LOL and hl and lf was like what happened and then after they knew of the story they were -.-"(x5times) ok.so frm then on it became a stupid story.
ok whatever.
HAHA i think one of my friends is put off by the idea of a gathering cum picnic cum catchingup session cum phototaking session at the zoo.while all my other friends agreed that it was a gd idea.LOL.dunno whose idea it was but it fulfiled the objectives of all that we wanted to do.SO IT'S SET,PAL.YOU HAVE NO CHOICE.
crapping here..ugh.slightly bored.

2006-11-29T00:10:00.000-08:00

You never could lie to me;you were always terrible at it.Your eyes betray you time and time again.Don't pretend that everything is perfect because I see it isn't.I see that Greg is a selfish man who has absolutely no idea just how lucky he is and it makes me sick.
He is the luckiest man in the world to have you,Rosie,but he doesn't deserve you and you deserve far better.You deserve someone who loves you with every single beat of his heart,someone who thinks about you constantly,someone who spends every minute of every day just wondering what you are doing,where you are,who you're with and if you are okay.You need someone who can help you reach your dreams and can preotect you from your fears.You need someone who will treat you with respect,love every part of you,especially your flaws.You should be with someone who can make you happy,really happy,dancing-on-air happy.Someone who should have taken the chanceto be with you years ago instead of becoming scared and too afraid to try.
I am not scared anymore,Rosie.I am not afraid to try.I know what the feeling was at your wedding-it was jealousy.My heart broke when i saw the woman i love turning away from me to walk down the aisle with another man,a man she planned to spend her rest of life with.It was like aprison sentence to me--years ahead without me being able to tell you how i feel or hold you how i wanted to.
All my love,Alex

2006-11-28T03:54:00.000-08:00

Jung Test Results
Extroverted (E) 58.06% Introverted (I) 41.94%Sensing (S) 60% Intuitive (N) 40%Feeling (F) 58.33% Thinking (T) 41.67%Perceiving (P) 52.94% Judging (J) 47.06%

Your type is: ESFP
ESFP - "Entertainer". Radiates attractive warmth and optimism. Smooth, witty, charming, clever. Fun to be with. Very generous. 8.5% of the total population.

2006-11-28T03:51:00.000-08:00

Instinctual Variant Test Results

Sexual		50%
Social		62%
Self Preservation		38%

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2006-11-24T03:19:00.000-08:00

grad night was over.grad night was kinda boring and it was until the photography session we created ourselves then did it became exciting and to me,it was the highlight of the night?haha our table 29 was so funny.u know there was the lucky dip and there was a total of 45 prizes lol and none of us at the table wanted to win the lucky dip cuz no one wanted to go up on stage and everyone was like eh eh if they call my name eh u help me go up and take ok?then the emcee announced 4N then she paused and ALL OF US AT THE TABLE breathed in deeply(u noe that HERRRH*) lol then the emcee announced john tay!then we were like whoo**eh heng ah eh lucky sia.LOL.u shld see our faces.
then it was another lucky winning thing.u noe they flashed our pictures of the past then whoever they circled will win a prize.which means: have to go up stage again.something i cant explain why our whole table feared.lol.saf's pic and angel's pic was flashed.saf was together wiv hannah during the morning digest thingy and angel was with one grp of ppl.haha!then saf became scared she told angel and angel was like 'haha the probability of me getting the prize is 1' then haha the organisers really circled her face!!! hahaha!the whole table laughed.haha.we had a good laugh man.
our table ppl is cool.lifang and shaikha came in purple and j.e.x came in black.hmm,hl came in grey.and angel came in gold and saf in turquoise ha and me in RED.lifang was really pretty.she's pretty and cute all at the same time,man.haha.the purple dress suits her her hair is damned cute.the process pains right?the hair looks like dewy spiderwebs but its kinda pain right for the hair to harden and must wash off at the end of the day..hmm.HL.hl hl hl ahhh..she's always pretty whats.she's too insecure.PLEASE,BABE recognise your flaws.(which is like your whole body)
safirah THANKS for the makeup you helped alot and i think she's slightly traumatised abt smoky eyes the mag kinda cheated her?lol THANKS for making my night fun and enjoyable and FUNNY.ya lah ya lah i am always dancing weirdly in between u and lifang.-.-"anyway u looked stunning yesterday and i applaud u for doing something not everyone has the courage to do.BRAVO,BABE! :D
angelina tan si hui. :D u are really wonderful.THANKS for the hair u did for everyone.kinda sorry u have to rack your brains to freestyle our hair.HEH.you looked absolutely stunning yesterday and someone said that u looked gorgeous too,right?(AHEM*)ok thanks for sharing your confessions yesterday.finally told us,huh.:D ok anyway i must say THANKS again. :)
heh.do i look very red yesterday?

all the guys looked handsome actually when they are dressed up.hmm.esp some of our friends.actually our male friends are all so kind and outgoing huh?like louis CHUA? kaiwu NURIMAN?? haha we cant wait to take photos with them.hey nuriman is a nice guy ok.oh ya not forgetting someone tall like samuel.when taking photos i can stand up straight instead of being given disgusted looks by guys sayin can u not so tall bend down lah and turn and tell the cameraman eh dun shoot below hor.LOL.ok.cheers to these guys,may you all succeed in all those future stuff u all do,k.
AND AND AND not forgetting pictures with TEACHERS : MR MUBARAK and mr toh..lol i think they seem overwhelmed by our enthusiastism? i din know everyone was so concerned abt my future?as in all those pushes and excited orders:"eh hh stand beside him leh!!" LOL LOL LOL.ok thanks everyone u have overdone it./lol just kidding.thanks.really.
while typing all these i looked and admired my beautifully cut and painted nails i think i look chic! HAHA.okok.red nails?
and i was really touched.and felt kinda weird cuz some ppl(they are not total strangers just that we dun talk and we dun say hi even if we passed ea other)requested photos with us.HA.THANKS.though it feels kinda weird but i really want to thank u all k.for picking up the courage.if it was me i would not dare.thanks.
and thank you the guys in our class for taking photos with us and taking photos FOR us.

Blew my chance awayyyy and awwaay......
it had just gotten further..and further..flew.
AWAY.

why didn't you?